It kept going on the same way, I’d get home from recording, drink myself silly and than I’d cry myself to sleep and turn up for work hung over and crabby. Then it changed. I’d come home, drink, cry, get up, drink and than go to work. Not even Billie Joe’s frequent phone calls could make me stop. It got so bad that I started taking alcohol to the studio with me and I’d go to the toilet every so often and have a drink. It went like that for a couple of months until Kev pulled me aside and sat me down, away from everyone else, it was only us. This was just after I’d entered the studio.

“Jaime, what’s going on?” He asked me gently

“Nothing” I replied, trying to act normally

“Jai, sweetheart I know there’s something going on. We all thought it was a phase you were going through and you’d be fine in a little while. You’re not fine” He said

“Yes I am” I said, starting to crave a drink even more than I would usually

“I went through this with AJ, I know the signs Jaime” He said gently

“I have no idea what you’re talking about” I shrugged, looking anywhere but at him

“I’m worried about you, we all are” He sighed “Your voice has changed, you can barely play your guitar…”

“Look, Kev, I’m fine, Jesus get off my case” I snapped, walking to the toilets. I grabbed my hip flask from my pocket and had 3 quick gulps of the bourbon and than put 3 breath mints in my mouth, cringing at the mixture of tastes. I went back out and saw Kev on the phone to someone. He turned away from me when I looked at him. Jenn and Taz smiled at me. I managed a smile back. We did a bit of mixing and than Kev told us all to go home and get some sleep. I went home, stopping at the bottle-o on the way and getting 3 bottles of bourbon and beer. I carried it all upstairs and opened my door. I noticed right away that my lounge room was spotless, not the way I’d left it this morning, and it smelt clean. I put my stuff down and went into the kitchen to find Billie Joe and Tré tipping every skerrick of alcohol I had down the sink.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” I said

“You need help” Billie Joe said quietly

“You have no fucking right” I said going over and trying to get the bottles away from them. I had tears streaming down my face and I was trying to claw them both. I felt the stinging that can only be felt after someone’s slapped you and stared, dumfounded and shocked at Billie Joe. I don’t know who it shocked more, him or me.

“Baby, I’m sorry” He said, tears coming to his eyes. I just stared at him, my hand to my cheek. He pulled me into a hug and I let him.

“Why don’t you go and talk” Tré said, handing me a glass of water. I followed Billie Joe into my bedroom, which was now also tidy, and sat on my bed. My hand still on my cheek.

“Jai, this has got to stop” He said, kneeling in front of me, his hands on my legs

“Why stop something that makes you feel good?” I mumbled

“Does it really make you feel good?” He asked me.

“It makes me forget” I answered

“For how long?” He asked me, looking into my eyes

“Until I sober up” I said, looking away from him

“There are other ways to forget. You’re just making yourself sick. Have you looked in the mirror lately?” He asked. I’d started avoiding mirrors. I shook my head no. He took the glass from my hands and lead me over to my full length mirror. I kept my head down, but didn’t resist when he lifted my chin. What I saw scared the shit out of me. My hair was greasy, my skin pale, my eyes sunken and with big bags around them. My once snug fitting punk shorts were now baggy and my shirt hung off me. I barely recognised myself.

“I know what it’s like to go through something like this” He said to me, so softly I nearly ddin’t hear him “But you need to get better, if not for yourself, than for me, because I don’t want to lose you” He added. I stayed quiet.

“We’re both still hurting from what happened, but that’s no excuse for you to slowly kill yourself” He said, his voice was pained and he looked like he was about to start crying I heard Tré talking to people out in the lounge room and turned toward the door.

“You’re not just hurting yourself Jai, you’re hurting everyone around you” He said as we started walking towards the lounge room. I found Tré talking to a pizza dude and paying him some money and than he was gone.

“I want you both out of my house, now” I said quietly, not looking at either of them

“jai” Tré started

“Now” I repeated, tears coming to my eyes, I refused to look at either of them

“I’m not leaving” Billie Joe said. I finally lost control of my self and started crying.

“Get out, go away and leave me the fuck alone. I don’t care anymore, just leave” I screamed. Tré grabbed Billie Joe’s arm and practically dragged him out my front door. I slumped to the floor and howled until I threw up and than I cried some more because I’d made a mess. I cried while I cleaned it up and managed to get to the bathroom before I threw up again. When I’d finally run out of tears I found a piece of paper and a pen and started scribbling a note. I didn’t even know what I wrote. I than found a razor blade and grabbed one of my new bottles of bourbon and sat in the bath, steaming with water, drinking and tracing my already existing scars on my wrist gently with the razor blade. I began cutting my thighs, watching the blood bubble to the surface of the water. I wasn’t thinking when I slowly pressed the blade harder into my skin and dragged it down over my tattoo. I didn’t feel any pain, it didn’t even register in my mind that there was blood pissing from the cut. I grasped the razor blade in my left hand and did the same to my opposite wrist and than I sat there, bleeding heavily, but still managing to finish off the bottle of bourbon before I passed out.

(this next bit occurs through the eyes of Tré, but kinda like a dream sequence of Jaime’s, if that makes sense)

“I really love her” BJ said to me as we sat in the park, not far from Jaime’s house

“I know” I answered, everyone knew, he had her name tattooed on his wrist, an engagement ring continually in his pocket and a grin on his face whenever someone mentioned her.

“I don’t understand why she’s doing this to herself” He said, a pained expression on his face

“I think it could be because of what happened. It made her develop depression and so she started drinking to make herself feel better” I said, leaning back against the tree we were sitting under

“I know, but why? God I thought I could bring her back” He said and I saw a lone tear slip down his cheek. I felt for him, I really did.

“It’s been 2 hours, you wanna go back and check on her?” I asked. He nodded. We both stood and went back to our hire car. I drove back to her flat and parked the car. We went upstairs and BJ unlocked the door with his key. I knew instantly something was wrong. It was too quiet. BJ must’ve knew too because he went pale.

“Jai? Baby, it’s us” He called out. No reply. He went into the kitchen. I spotted a piece of paper on the floor and went over picking it up.

“Oh fuck” I said

“What?” Came BJ’s voice from the balcony now. I didn’t answer him, I was already sprinting to the bathroom.

“No, Jaime, no” I said dropping to my knees and pulling her head above water.

“Jaime” BJ gasped and I glanced at him and saw him slowly sliding down the door frame.

“Call 911” I yelled at him as I pulled Jaime’s naked body out of the water. I felt for a pulse and felt a weak one, which was a good thing, but it was also a bad thing, that meant the blood was still being pumped from her many cuts. She wasn’t breathing. I heard BJ sobbing and my heart broke again.

“Billie! Get an ambulance” I said managing to smack him on the arm. He scrambled to his feet and disappeared. I pulled down the towels from the towel rack and did my best to try and slow the bleeding enough to give her mouth to mouth. Within seconds, the towels were nearly soaked through and Billie Joe was beside me, crying again.

“Billie, come on, hold it together, you need to hold her wrists to try and stop the bleeding” I said. I was amazed at how calm I sounded. I thought I was panicking. He did as I told him and I went back to breathing for her. After what seemed like hours there were 2 paramedics pushing their way into the bathroom and Billie Joe and I were being lead out of the way by a 3^rd person. When I looked at our hands they were covered in blood. We were taken outside and sat on the edge of the ambulance. I realised I was shaking and tried to keep still.

“Here” Someone said. I looked up and saw a policeman offering us a cigarette. I took 2 and lit them both before handing one to BJ. He was now silent, just staring at the ground while he smoked. I looked up when I heard noises and saw the paramedics rushing the stretcher, with Jaime on it, towards us. I got up and hauled Billie Joe out of the way before they pushed the stretcher in.

“Quick” I said pulling to the car, to follow the ambulance. At the hospital we followed them as far as the trauma room when they told us to wait outside.

“I guess I should start calling people” Billie Joe said softly

“I can if you want” I said

“No it’s ok” He said

“Why don’t we both do it” I suggested. He nodded. We stood and went to the phone. I emptied my pockets and put all the quarters on the tray, Billie Joe did the same.

“I’ll ring her mom if you can call Kev” He said. I nodded and put a few quarters in. I found Kev’s number in my cell and punched the number in and listened to it ring.

“Hello?” Came Jesse’s voice

“Hey Jesse, it’s Tré can I speak with Kev?” I asked

“Sure, one second” She said and I heard her moving around.

“Kevin Richardson” Came Kev’s voice not long after

“I think you should come to the hospital” I said, finally breaking down

“Why? Tré, what’s happened?” He asked

“Jaime, she tried to kill herself, I don’t know if we found her in time, just get here soon” I said

“I’m on my way” He said and hung up. I tried to calm myself down before I called Jennisen, but when I heard her cheery voice I lost it again.

“Jenn, it’s Tré, can you get the to hospital right now?” I asked

“Jaime?” She asked, her voice now filled with fear

“Yeah” I said

“I’ll be there as soon as I can” She promised. I hang up and had to sit down before I tried to call anyone else. After everyone we thought was important had been called we sat in the waiting area and waited for them all to arrive. Kev, Taz, Mike and Jenn were the first ones there, followed by Brian, AJ and Nick. BJ was on his knee’s, praying for the first time in god knows how long and I just wanted to hug him.

“What’s happened is she alright?” Jenn was asking me, she was damn near hysterical and to tell the truth, so was I. Just as I was about to tell them what had happened the doctor came out with fresh blood all over his green scrubs.

“Where are the people with Miss Cobain?” He asked

“We’re all here for her” Kev said, clearing his throat

“We were able to stop the bleeding and get her stabilized. Right now she’s in a comatose state and we’ll have no idea until she wakes up whether or not the lack of blood combined with lack of oxygen has caused permanent damage. She’s receiving another blood transfusion as we speak The nurse is just stitching up the last of the cuts” He said

“Can I see her?” Billie Joe asked

“You can all see her, 1 at a time and not for long, after we shift her into the ICU ward” He said. We all silently headed for the elevator.

“tell us what happened” Kev said gently

“BJ tried to talk to her and it was alright, but than she told us to get out nad leave her alone, I thought that was the best thing, give her some time to think. We were gone for 2 hours. When we went back I found a note and than I found her in the bath tub. She has cuts all over her legs and her wrists are slit, in the exact same place as the other time” I said, in a rush. No one spoke but Taz put her arms around me and hugged me. We sat in the waiting room for the ICU and again waited. Eventually a nurse came out and told us to go in 1 at a time and for 2 minutes only. Before we went in though we had to wash our hands with sterile hand wash and all that. BJ insisted on going last, so the rest of us went in and said our hello’s . The nurse told everyone to leave once they’d had a turn and that the hospital would call if something happened. Billie Joe hadn’t seen her yet and I knew he was going to flat out refuse to leave her side. I waited while he went in. 2 minutes went by, than 5, 10, 20 and after 45 minutes a nurse went in and found him with his head buried in a pillow, crying. She tried to get him to leave, but he wouldn’t so she allowed him to stay and even brought him blankets. I was allowed to go in and say goodbye but than I had to leave. I drove back to Jaime’s place and set about cleaning up the now semi dried blood in her bathroom. 1 week and 5 days passed without any indication that she was going to wake up, though she was still breathing on her own and no longer in the ICU. I came into her room at 11am on a Thursday morning and found BJ fiddling with the engagement ring he’d not given her yet watching her with bloodshot eyes. He hadn’t left the hospital since she came in. He hadn’t spoken to his kids yet either.

“BJ” I said sitting beside him in another chair. He looked over at me.

“She’s been moving” He said

“That’s good, but man you’re not doin her any good sitting here, not sleeping, not eating or anything” I said gently

“I can’t leave her” He said and turned away from me

“If you promise to go back to her place and get some sleep, have a meal and ring Jack and Joey, I promise to not leave this room until you come back” I said

“I’m ok, really” He insisted

“I’ve heard that before. Look at it this way, if you don’t willingly leave I’ll drag you out myself” I said. I could see he wanted to smile, but just couldn’t bring himself to do it.

“Alright, I’ll go, but you have to ring me if something happens” He said. I nodded. We both stood and I gave him a long hug before he left. I sat in his vacated seat and gently grabbed hold of Jaime’s hand. I’d heard somewhere that sometimes people in a coma could hear you talking, so I took a breath and got ready to speak.

“Hey Jaime, it’s Tré. I just want you to know that we’re all really scared for you. You need to come back to us. Billie’s not eating or sleeping. He’s been here since you first came in. I had to force him to go home and sleep” I said quietly, feeling like an idiot.

“Nick and Taz have broken up again, Taz has been staying at a hotel, there’s something wrong with her, I can tell. It’s like she’s continually on her own little high, but I’m sure she doesn’t take drugs. She’s been spending a fair bit of time with AJ too, bit worried about that” I said. For a second, when I looked at her face, I thought she looked concerned, but I blinked and it was gone.

“Kev, Taz and Jenn did a press conference the other day and told them that you were in hospital because you had an accident. You’ve got so many get well cards from your fans, they’re all at Kev’s place right now, they’re basically filling up an entire room” I said and chuckled sadly

“Jesus, I hate seeing you like this” I said, getting choked up. I lay my head on her bed and cried for a long time.

“Frankie” I heard her croak faintly. I lifted my head and saw her looking at me through half closed eyes,

“Jaime” I cried, jumping up. She smiled faintly. I pressed the call button frantically and 3 nurses ran into the room a short time later and instantly began checking her over. I waited patiently off to the side and after about half an hour they left and Jaime was a little more awake.

“How do you feel baby?” I asked her gently, brushing some here from her face

“Like I have a really, really, horribly bad hang over” She said, her voice was still croaky

“Do you want me to call BJ?” I asked her

“No, I don’t want to see him” She said, looking away. I nodded and sat down.

“I heard you telling me that Taz was spending a lot of time with AJ” She said

“Yeah, I’m a little worried. I’m pretty sure that she’s not taking drugs but her attitude has changed significantly” I said

“Tré” She said softly, again not looking at me

“Yeah hun?” I replied

“I’m gonna go to rehab, when I get out of this shit hole” She said

“I’m glad” I said

“How does Billie do it? He was an alcoholic, but he still drinks and gets drunk. How does he control himself?” She asked

“Hun, he’s got a LOT of self discipline. I’m sure that if you really worked at it you’d be able to be the same” I said.

It was the day after I woke up and Tré was still there, he hadn’t told anyone I’d woken up, I didn’t wanna see anyone. I was ashamed of what I’d done and even more ashamed that I failed at doing it. Tré wouldn’t tell me what had happened, but I think I knew. My thighs stung and I couldn’t remember why. I got my answer when the nurse came and ushered Tré out so I could have a sponge bath. She helped me undress and when I saw the cuts on my thighs, some stitched others not, I started to cry and desperately wanted a drink. The nurse tried to reassure me, but I didn’t listen. When I was redressed I lay facing the wall, away from the door. I heard Tré come in and refused to speak to him.

“Jai, I have to ring BJ and Kev and Taz and Jenn, they need to know that you’re awake and ok” He said to me gently. I ignored him. When he left I started crying again. He came back about 15 minutes later and came around to the side of the bed so I could see him.

“Kev and BJ are on their way, I couldn’t do anything to stop them. Taz and Jenn are going to wait until you’re feeling better and than come and see you” He said. I just stared past him, silent tears running down my face. He sighed and started walking away.

“I’m sorry” I sobbed, I couldn’t help it. He came back into my sight and crouched down beside my bed.

“Why are you sorry?” He asked me softly

“For putting everyone through this” I said, squeezing my eyes shut as sobs racked my body

“Don’t you dare apologize for this. It’s not your fault” He said

“It is. I knew I shouldn’t have started drinking like I did” I said

“That was your way of dealing with it, no one can blame you for that. You were hurting” He said

“But so was Billie and I just completely shut him out” I said, struggling to sit up. he helped me and sat on the edge of my bed.

“He understands Jaime, he went through this before, he saw that it was getting too much and he wanted to stop you, but he still let you deal your way” He said gently

“And I try to make everything, all my problems, go away by trying to top myself” I said sarcastically as I cried

“But what really matters here is your alive now, you can get help and we’re all gonna be there, every big fucking step of the way, Jaime” He said, also starting to cry. I wrapped my arms around him and we both cried for ages until the door slammed open and Billie Joe came in. I let Tré go and when billie Joe came over I flung my arms around him and started crying all over again.

“God Jaime, I love you so much” He said

“I love you too” I answered, sobbing uncontrollably. Through my tears and over his shoulder I saw Kev come in. He looked so relieved as he slumped against the door frame, a bit of a smile on his face. After a couple of hours Kev left, saying he needed to organise another press conference. Billie Joe wasn’t moving from his position beside me on the bed and Tré had made himself comfortable in the chairs.

“When I was unconscious I had a dream, it was really weird” I said after a while of silence

“What was it about?” Billie Joe asked me

“I was dreaming about you guys sitting in a park and than coming to my house and finding me, you know” I said. They exchanged glances

“What?” I asked

“When you told us to leave, we went to the park down the road. We stayed there for about 2 hours before we went back to check on you” Tré explained softly.

“Was it you, that found the note?” I asked. He nodded.

“And the bath?” I asked. Again, he nodded.

“You gave me mouth to mouth because I wasn’t breathing” I said

“Yeah” He answered

“And you called the ambulance and than my mum” I said to Billie. He nodded.

“They’re not here” I said

“They couldn’t get a Visa for 3 months. I gave them the money for the trip and everything” He said

“Are they coming?” I asked

“When they get their visa’s they’ll be here. Tré has stayed in touch with everyone and let them know what’s going on. I called them to say you were awake before I came here” He said

“Thank you” I said. He kissed my cheek.

“What the hell is in your pocket? It’s digging into me” I said

“Sorry” He said and shuffled around so he could get it out. As soon as I saw the box I knew what it was and I stared.

“Not the most romantic setting in the world or under the best circumstances but, by the look on your face you know what it is” He said

“Don’t ask me, not yet” I said. He looked puzzled.

“Of course it’s yes, but I want to do it properly, when I’m better and not in hospital” I said

“Ok” He said, grinning stupidly as he put it in his other pocket. Tré clapped.

“So it’s an unofficial engagement?” He asked

“Not a damn word” Billie Joe said to him.

“Promise” He grinned. I had to stay in hospital for another 4 days before I was allowed out and instead of going home I went and admitted myself to rehab where I stayed for 2 months before I was sent home because I’d completed the steps and was no longer an alcoholic. Billie Joe picked me up and told me he had a surprise for me. I was a little nervous but at the same time really excited about everything. I hadn’t been able to see my friends for the entire 2 months I was in there and I’d missed them all so much. Instead of driving to my flat Billie Joe took me in the completely opposite direction and pulled off the road. He produced a bandanna and instructed me to turn around. I let him blindfold me and than he gave me a kiss.

“No peeking” He said as we pulled back on to the road.

“I promise” I said. It was an unusual feeling, not being able to see and I started wondering about blind people. After about 10 minutes of driving we slowed to a stop.

“Stay put” Billie Joe said as he got out of the car. My door opened and I turned my head in that direction.

“Ok, come on” He said, taking my arm and helping me out.

“Billie, what are you doing?” I asked as he picked me up

“The grounds uneven, I don’t want you to fall over and hurt yourself” He said. I laughed and hung on as he started carrying me somewhere. After a while he set me down on a hard surface and pushed open a door or something. He guided me in and started untying the bandanna. When he let it fall from my eyes I gasped and stumbled backwards into him.

“Welcome home Jaime” He whispered in my ear. I looked around at the house which had all my furniture, plus new stuff in it. The walls were painted in different colours, but my attention fell on the feature wall which was black with ‘Punk Rocker’ in red, blue and yellow paint in various places on the wall.

“Do you like it?” He asked

“I fucking love it” I grinned

“Let’s go see the rest of the house” He said, taking my hand. I was wearing wrist braces until the scars had faded again and than I was going to get the tattoo fixed up. He lead me into the kitchen, which was blue and the cupboards had words scrawled all over them.

“Of course, if you don’t like any of it we can change it” Billie Joe said

“Billie, it’s awesome” I said. He grinned and led me up a silver spiral staircase tucked into a corner. We emerged in a room painted completely black, the blinds were pulled down over the windows and I could barely see. Billie Joe switched on a light and I found myself in a home theatre, complete with seats, mega screen and surround sound. He lead me out another door and I found myself looking down a hall way, both walls were decorated with traffic signs from Australia and various pictures from the years we’d all been friends. At the other end of the hall way was another stair case. H lead me down the hall and pushed open a door. It must’ve been the master bedroom. It looked exactly like my room in Australia, except bigger and cleaner. It even had the sound system and lights. It also had an ensuite, and what looked like a walk in wardrobe. Instead of showing me what was in it, he lead me down to another room.

“I maybe jumped ahead of myself here, so forgive and please don’t take it the wrong way” He said as he pushed open the door. I stepped in and saw 2 king size single beds against opposite walls. Obviously this was Jakob and Joseph’s room. It was in different shades of blue and had a toy box, desk with a computer and a book shelf which looked a bit desolate cos it was fairly empty.

“Atleast they won’t have to share a bed now” I grinned. He laughed and took my hand, pulling me down the hall a little further and opening a door on the opposite side.

“This is the spare room” He said. It had a double bed, wardrobe, chest of drawers and a TV mounted on the wall. It was painted in bright colours. Next he showed me the main bathroom which was a yellowy colour and was really pretty. It had a bath tub, shower and toilet, plus a vanity. He took me down the other stair case which was also spiral and we emerged in an open space where my 4 guitars were on stands with a couple of amplifiers. A lounge was positioned against the wall, at the other end of the room, facing my guitars. I knew what that was for. Also in the room was what appeared to be a bar, although there was no alcohol was in sight, and a plasma TV where another lounge, a few bean bags and a couple of recliners were positioned. Through another door that put us in a hall way.

“This is the office, there’s a computer and stuff in there, but it’s pretty boring. Downstairs bathroom in there, also pretty boring and than you’ve already seen the other 2 rooms. Now for the back” he grinned and pulled me towards the kitchen again, out some French doors and onto a beautiful deck which over looked a swimming pool and a gorgeous area of grass, where all my friends were waiting.

“Welcome home Jaime” They cheered. I started laughing and ran down the stairs to greet them. Taz and AJ were at the back of the group and they looked weird, like they weren’t all there. I hugged Jenn and Drake, than Mike, Tré, Kev, Nick, Brian, Jesse and finally AJ and Taz, who were out of it. I didn’t want to harass her about it right now though, I’d wait until she was herself. Billie Joe had come down the steps after me and smiled when I came over to hug him.

“Thank you so much” I said

“Tré paid for half” He said to me. I went over and wrapped my arms around Tré who gave me a squeeze.

“Thank you” I said to him

“You’re welcome hun” He said and kissed my cheek

“So if this is a party? Why aren’t we being idiots?” I asked

“Let’s get this show on the road” Nick called out and he and Jesse ran up to the stereo which I only just noticed. The music started and everyone drifted to either the pool, or the table which was on the deck. Billie Joe pulled me away from everyone and sat me on a stone bench under a tree.

“Tré told me that you asked about me and my drinking, when you first woke up” He said

“Yeah, I wanted to know how you did it” I said

“If you want a drink you can, but as long as you’re not gonna get angry at me for telling you to stop when I think you should. Thjat’s how I learnt. Tré and Mike always told me to stop, I hated it, but they were right. You need a LOT of self control too” He said

“Not yet” I smiled at him. He nodded and gave me a kiss.

“You know I love you right?” He asked

“I know and I love you too” I answered. He smiled and we went back to all my friends, who unsurprisingly were drinking.

“If you wanna drink, you can” I said to Billie Joe

“Nope, I’m gonna be good” he grinned. I laughed and sat down while he and Jenn went into the house to get some food. Nick and Tré sat on either side of me, both trying to hide their beers.

“Don’t bother, I know you’ve got them” I grinned

“Does it both you?” Nick asked

“Not in the least, we’re all havin fun and that’s all that matters” I said

“We missed havin you around” Tré said

“I missed you guys too, you’re all my best fuckin friends” I said

“Do you like the house?” Nick asked

“Fuck yeah, it’s awesome, I’m gonna miss my little flat though and all the good times I had there” I said

“It’s still yours, we leased it out privately, you still get the money from it” Tré explained

“Cool” I said nodding. Jenn came out carrying 2 plates with food on them and Billie Joe came out carrying 2 bowls, a plate and a glass of coke, obviously for me. He set it all on the table and kicked Tré out of his seat so he could sit beside me. I leaned over and grabbed a handful of lollies from one of the bowls and grinned at him, he smiled back. We all ate and talked and had a lot of fun, I didn’t even care that I wasn’t drinking. As everyone started drifting off, Billie Joe got increasingly fidgety.

“What’s wrong?” I asked as we saw Mike, Jenn and Drake out

“Nothin” He smiled. I nodded and we went back out to where Nick and Tré were talking. They were the only 2 left. After a while Billie Joe went inside for something and I was left with Tré and Nick.

“He wants to make love tonight” Tré said to me

“He does?” I asked, looking at the doors, for what reason I have no clue

“But only if you do, he thought it’d be special for you” He said

“I don’t know if I want to” I said

“Just see how it goes when we leave” Nick said

“Speaking of which, when BJ comes back, we’ll piss off so you can have some time together” Tré said

“You don’t have to go” I said

“I’ve gotta go see a movie with Leslie tonight anyway” Nick said

“Oh ok, don’t drink and drive” I said

“I won’t” He grinned and finished off his beer. Not long later, Billie Joe came back out and grinned at us all.

“We’re gonna piss of man” Tré said to him

“You need me to drive you anywhere?” He asked

“No, it’s all good we’ll get a taxi” Nick said. We saw them out and watched them get in the waiting taxi.

“What now?” I asked Billie Joe

“You wanna have a bath?” He replied

“Are you gonna be in there with me?” I answered

“You can count on that” He winked. I laughed and let him lead me upstairs, through my room and into the ensuite. The bath was fucking huge and it had water jets. There were rose petals and candles and a bottle of coke chilling on ice.

“Where’s the champagne?” I asked

“Didn’t know if you’d want it” He answered

“Coke will do fine” I grinned and started to undress. He turned the water on and as the bath filled up the rose petals rose and bubble bath made lots of bubbles. He got undressed and tested the water, it was just right apparently because he stepped in and sat down, motioning me in. I turned the water off and got in, lowering myself between his legs. He wrapped his arms around me and we both sunk further into the water.

“I remember in Australia when we had a bath together” I said softly

“That was one fucking awesome time” He said. I nodded in agreement and sighed.

“Do you wanna talk about it?” He asked

“No, I’m ok, I promise” I smiled, turning my head and kissing him.

Chapter 22

Billie Joe and I had not left the house for an entire week. We weren’t doing anything special, just relaxing and being with each other. We hadn’t made love, I didn’t know if I wanted to or not and Billie Joe didn’t push me. We were out near the pool, he was drinking beer and I had a glass of juice and we were just talking.

“I’m gonna get in the pool, it’s really hot out here” I said to him

“Alright” He grinned. I put my juice down and took my sunglasses off and went over to the edge of the pool. I dove in and surfaced after doing the length of the pool underwater. Billie Joe was still on the deck chair watching me, amused.

“Water’s nice, you should come in” I said

“And ruin my punk tan? I think not” He said. He wasn’t wearing swimmers, he was in jeans and a shirt. I swam to the edge closest to him and leaned on the pavement. He grinned down at me

“Why did you get a house with a pool if you weren’t gonna use it?” I asked

“Well because the kids will and you, the others too” He said. I slipped my arms back in the water and ducked below the surface, pulling my top and bottoms off. I resurfaced and threw them at him.

“Are you sure you don’t wanna come in?” I asked, pushing off the edge and laying back in the water.

“Well when you put it that way” He grinned and pulled his shirt off, dropping it and his sunnies on the deck chair and than pulling off his jeans and diving in. He surfaced right infront of me and grinned. His hair was in his eyes. I pushed it back and wrapped my arms and legs around him, kissing him gently. We kissed for a little while and than I broke the kiss and put my mouth right next to his ear.

“I’ve never made love in a pool before” I whispered. Before I even had the sentence finished he was carrying me through the water to the steps where he sat down in the corner. He was hard and I felt myself getting even more turned on by the second.

“Are you sure?” He asked me gently

“4 months is a very, very long time” I answered, slipping his cock inside me slowly. I kissed him again as I started to ride him, slowly. I eventually quickened my pace and groaned against his lips. The phone started ringing but both of us ignored it. Billie Joe had his head tipped back against the edge of the pool and his mouth was partially open and he was grunting softly.

“God Jaime” He moaned, lifting his head and sliding his hands up and down my back

“I’m nearly there” I said to him

“Me too” He answered. I quickened my pace one last time before both of us came and we held each other tight.

“Do you wanna go inside?” He asked me

“Yeah” I answered, moving to get off him, but he wouldn’t let me go, instead he stood, still inside me, and holding me in his arms, and carried me inside and up to the bedroom. Before he put me down he slipped himself out of me and lay beside me, despite the heat we curled up together.

“Billie” I said softly

“Yeah babe?” He answered me, nuzzling my neck playfully

“Can we talk?” I asked. He stopped and leant up, leaning on his elbow. I rolled onto my back and looked up at him.

“Of course we can” He said

“I didn’t know I was pregnant, I shouldn’t have been because I’m on the pill” I said

“I know that baby” He replied, gently, resting his hand on my naked stomach.

“I don’t think I want to try for another, if we get married” I said. He looked a bit disappointed but nodded.

“I understand” He said

“I’m not sure I’d be able to go through all the heartache again if something happened” I said, diverting my eyes

“Well, if that’s what you want. We’ve got an instant family anyway, with Jack and Joey” He said

“Yeah” I smiled. I did want to have a baby with Billie Joe, but like I’d said, if something happened I’m pretty damn sure I wouldn’t be able to go through it again.

“When do you go back into the studio?” He asked me

“Next week” I answered

“Good, we don’t have to leave the house for another week” He grinned and walked his fingers down my stomach towards my pubic hairline. For the rest of the day and most of the night we made love, in so many different ways it’s not funny. Eventually though we both got tired and curled up again. I woke up to the sound of chuckling and looked towards the end of the bed to see Tré, Jenn, Mike, who was holding Drake and Nick standing there with a camcorder.

“What the fuck? Get out” I said. I was trying my hardest not to smile.

“What’s goin on?” Billie mumbled from beside me. I pulled the sheet tighter around me and sat up

“Just the loser troop tryin to get their rocks off” I said. He gave them all the finger and threw a pillow at them.

“Ladies and gentleman, it is in fact true, Billie Joe Armstrong and Jaime Cobain are sleeping naked in the same bed” Nick gave a commentary

“Hey Nicky, do you think that could be because we live here?” Billie Joe asked

“Well, it’s a definite possibility” Nick answered

“Lemme give Drake a hug” I said to Mike. He brought him over and I took the child from him and gave him a big hug and a kiss.

“You gonna say hello to Aunty Jaime?” Jenn asked him. He waved shyly at me

“Aww hey Drakey Poo” I said and gave him another hug. Billie Joe was watching us with a smile on his face

“You people should fuck off so we can get dressed” He said

“Nuh uh, I’m stayin put” Tré said. Billie Joe shrugged and started to get up, taking the doona with him and wrapping it around his waste. Tré kept the lens focused on him while he went into the wardrobe and than through to the bathroom, closing the door.

“Jaime’s turn” He announced and the camera was focused on me

“Bugger off now and I might give you a present” I said, grinning

“Alright” He said reluctantly and Jenn grabbed Drake off me before following Tré, Nick and Mike out. I stood up, taking the sheet with me, just in case and went into the wardrobe. I grabbed some clothes and knocked on the door to the bathroom. Billie Joe opened it and I found him standing in a pair of jeans and no shirt and shaving cream on his face.

“Morning gorgeous” I grinned, going in and kissing him quickly before closing the door and dropping the sheet. I put the clothes on the vanity and turned on the shower

“I just kind of invited myself to move in” He said as he went back to shaving

“I don’t mind” I grinned and stepped under the water. As I washed my hair I watched him glide the razor over his face and thought about how goddamn hott he looked.

“Whatcha lookin at?” He asked, glaring playfully

“My gorgeous unofficial husband to be” I answered

“Mmm, so the answer’s still yes?” He asked

“You betcha” I answered. He smiled and went back to shaving. I figured he had something planned and was waiting for when I least expected it. I finished washing my hair and got out not long after Billie Joe went to keep the others entertained. I quickly got dressed in a pair of punk shorts and a black singlet with a tie hanging loosely around my neck and went downstairs to my friends who were out on the deck.

“Where’s Taz?” I asked no one in particular

“She wasn’t home and not answering her mobile” Nick answered

“Oh ok” I said, fear and than anger washing over me. I tried to forget about it. I took the seat next to Tré and opposite Billie Joe who still hadn’t put a shirt on. Tré flipped on the camcorder and pointed it towards Billie Joe.

“For those of you who haven’t seen BJ without a shirt, you’d better hit pause” He said. Billie Joe just sat there with a neutral expression on his face and than he slowly lifted his hand and instead of flipping them off, did the rock symbol.

“Yeah baby!” Jenn cheered

“So, Jaime, tell us, what have you been doing this past week?” Tré asked, pointing the camera at me

“Well, Frankie, I’ve been spending time with Billie, catching up on some song writing and playin a bit of guitar” I said

“You gonna play a little something for us now?” He asked

“Oh I guess so” I said with a fake sigh and than I grinned and stood up.

“Come on, I’ll race ya” I said to him. He laughed and started running inside. I took the short cut and went through the back door around the other side of the house. I was waiting for him when he entered with Billie Joe, Jenn, Mike and Nick laughing behind him.

“Cheat” He pouted

“Aww I’m sorry Frankie baby” I said and kissed his cheek. He laughed and made himself comfortable on the lounge

“What do you want me to play?” I asked, picking up Kurt’s old guitar and strumming it softly

“Something you haven’t played for ages” Billie Joe piped up. I thought for a second and started strumming the all to familiar tune of the very first Nirvana song Kurt ever taught me.

“Polly wants a cracker, think I should get off her first, think she wants some water to put out the blow torch” I started singing and closed my eyes as emotion swept over me. I kept singing, and I swear I hurt Kurt singing with me. I opened my eyes and looked over at my friends who all had the same expression on their faces. Pure shock. I finished the song and stopped, looking at them.

“Jesus Christ Jaime, we knew you were good, but… shit” Tré said

“What?” I asked, confused by why they were all gawking at me

“Do another” Nick said. I shrugged and thought of Oh Me. I started playing and singing, but this time I kept my eyes open and watched them. A few times in the song my vision got blurry, but I still watched them. By the end, Jenn had tears streaming down her face.

“Why are you all looking at me like you’ve never seen me play before?” I demanded

“When you sing Nirvana songs you look and sound like an Angel” Nick said so softly I could only just hear him

“What are you talking about? I sing like this all the time” I said

“I’ve seen it too. There are a few songs that Dysfunct sing and in particular Nirvana when you just really shine Jai. It’s a literal shine, it’s like there’s a spot light on you, even when there isn’t and you just sing like those songs were written with you and your voice and your skills in mind” Billie Joe said. I tried to grasp what they were saying and couldn’t.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about” I said

“It’s like Kurt’s standing right there beside you” Mike said

“Well I guess so. To tell you the truth, sometimes when I sing one of his songs, I can hear him singing with me” I said and shrugged, putting the guitar back on the case and wiping a smudge off it lovingly.

“Maybe he’s with you in spirit” Nick suggested

“Maybe” I smiled and started walking to the door

“Let’s eat I’m hungry” I said. Everyone stood and followed me back into the kitchen and helped me make sandwiches for everyone. We sat out on the deck and joked around for a while. The 6 of us were watching something on TV when Taz showed up. She was beginning to worry me, always looking like she was high and spending a lot of time with AJ who I hadn’t heard from in a while.

“Jai I need some money” She said, pulling me away from everyone

“What for?” I asked with a grin

“I-I just need it” She said glancing around and wiping her nose

“Ok, how much?” I asked

“100” She said. It wasn’t unusual for any of my friends to ask for $100 so I didn’t think anything of it and handed her the money. She said hello to everyone and left again. After a while everyone else left and it was just Billie Joe and I left alone.

“What do you want for dinner?” Billie Joe asked me as we sat, curled up in the theatre watching a DVD.

“Hmm, something yummy” I answered

“Like what?” He asked

“I dunno” I said

“You want spaghetti?” He asked

“Sounds good” I grinned

“And garlic bread?” He asked

“Yeah” I said. He nodded and stood up. I paused the DVD and followed him down to the kitchen and sat on the counter while I watched him get dinner ready.

5 months later

Dysfunct finished the album and we called it Gimme Two, but we had to postpone the release because of Taz. She came to me a few weeks back and asked for help. I had suspicions that she was usuing drugs but whenever I asked her she flat out denied it. That was until she told me everything. AJ had apparently offered her a tablet to give her a bit of a pick me up at my birthday party because she was tired and stuff and than she asked for it again a couple of weeks later. He told her what it was and she stayed away from him until the desperation for some became too much. She and AJ had begun sleeping and drinking and taking drugs together, even going so far as to share a needle when they did heroine, which thankfully wasn’t often. I helped her admit herself into rehab and swore everyone to secrecy. Before we did that though we did a press release saying we were doing some extra recording for a while, to make sure the cd was perfect, when really Taz was getting herself better. I hadn’t gone to kill AJ yet, I was too scared, but when I got a phone call of Taz saying that she was so desperate for some coke that she snorted baby powder in the toilets I completely lost it and as soon as I was off the phone went over. Words were said and punches were thrown, AJ ended up in hospital, I ended up with a few broken fingers. None of the others were speaking to him and I knew that the end of the BSB was drawing closer. Today Taz was getting out of rehab and I was throwing her a little party. All of us were there, minus AJ. Tré had gone to pick her up and as soon as I heard the car in the driveway I smiled and we all went out the front and clapped her. She looked happy again and was back to her old self, half her hair was purple, the other half pink.

“GROUP HUG” I shouted and everyone dove on Taz who had started laughing.

“You guys are the best” She said when we let her up

“Come on, food’s on” I grinned, dragging her inside.

“Does anyone else realise it’s almost Christmas?” She asked as we sat in the warmth of the dining room

“Yes” We all chorused.

“When are we releasing Gimme Two?” She asked pinching a mini pizza from the plater before Nick could.

“In January sometime” Kev said

“And are we doin the whole concert thing?” She asked

“Hell yeah!” Jenn and I said together.

“In Australia?” She asked hopefully

“We leave on the 5^th” Kev said with a smile. She looked happy and we kept eating.

“Would anyone like a beer?” I asked, standing up

“Oh I would love a beer” Taz said. Everyone else said yes so I went over to the fridge and got out the carton, carrying it over to the table and handing out beers. I picked another up and stared at it for a long time, trying to decide whether or not I wanted it. I noticed that everyone had fallen silent and were watching me curiously. I looked up at Billie Joe and he just smiled.

“2 or 3 can’t hurt can it?” I asked no one in particular, still looking at Billie Joe

“I’ll make sure you don’t have any more than you say” He said. I smiled and sat down, opening my beer. I had a small sip and closed my eyes, savouring the taste.

“you know, I think I like this a little too much” I said

“You’ll be right” Taz said slapping me on the back. I nodded and set the beer back on the table. After a while we shifted all the food and the beer into the lounge room and spread out, talking and laughing and just basically having fun. It was nice. At around 2am everyone decided they would just crash here and found themselves a bed. Tré was making himself comfortable on the lounge when I sat beside him.

“Why you sleeping on the lounge?” I asked

“Just figured you and BJ would want some privacy” he shrugged

“You can stay with us” I said

“It’s ok, I’ll sleep down here” He said. I nodded and gave him a hug, kissing his cheek. I went upstairs and found Billie Joe sitting cross legged on the bed writing something.

“Whatcha writing?” I asked crawling beside him

“I’m writing in my diary” He said, covering it up quickly

“Aww ok, I’m sorry” I said and moved away from him. He chuckled and put the book back on his lap and stared at it for a moment.

“You can read it when we wake up, I promise” He said

“I don’t wanna read you diary” I said

“Well if you change your mind, you’re allowed. I’ve had one since Green Day first got together as Sweet Children, that was before Tré came along” He said

“Cool” I said nodding and laying down, slipping underneath the covers

“I kept all of them” He said and wrote something else down before shutting the book and putting it in the drawer of the bedside table. He got under the covers and lay down beside me.

“You ok?” He asked me

“Yeah, just thinking” I smiled and moved closer to him

“About what?” He asked

“Us…” I trailed off

“Mmm and what about us?” He asked, putting his arms around me and kissing my forehead.

“Just how long we can last” I said

“Baby, it’s been a year already, I think we’re pretty much in it for life” He said

“But there’s so many factors that could cause us to spilt up” I said

“Like what?” He asked

“Well Jack and Joey for starters” I said

“Trust me Jai, they want you and I to be together” He chuckled

“But I don’t want to be their step-mum, I’m happy to be their dad’s girlfriend” I said

“What would be so wrong about being their step-mom?” He asked

“Nothing, I just don’t want the relationship I have with them to change. I mean if I’m their step-mum I’d have to be a parent, which means punishing them. How could I do that?” I asked

“I wouldn’t stress about that too much just yet, maybe when they’re teenagers” He grinned

“And than there’s Adrienne” I said

“She would have nothing to do with our relationship” He said

“But she does, in a way, Billie, come on, it wouldn’t be easy for her to see you get married again, especially to me” I said

“Yeah, but fuck her, I’m in love with you Jaime and nothing, or no one can stop us from being together” He said, holding me tighter

“How the hell did I end up with you?” I asked as I snuggled closer. He laughed and kissed my hair.

“Just lucky I guess” He said. I nodded and smiled against his neck where my head was nestled, kissing it gently. Eventually we both fell asleep and I didn’t wake up for ages. Not until the following afternoon. I got out of bed and went down stairs, yawning and stretching. Taz and Tré were talking on the lounge and Billie Joe was playing peek-a-boo with Drake on the floor. I loved watching him with his own kids and with Drake because he just looked like he suited the position of father. I desperately wanted a baby with him, but not until Dysfunct had settled down a little and we were married and only if I could convince myself that nothing like what happened before, would happen again.

“Morning peoples” I said as I dropped on the lounge beside Tré

“Who’s that? Is that Aunty jai?” Billie Joe asked Drake, pointing to me/ Drake waved.

“Hey little man” I said, waving back. He chuckled and reached out to Billie Joe, touching his chin and quickly snatching his hand away, shocked. Billie Joe hadn’t had a shave for a couple of days and his chin and cheeks were stubbly. I chuckled and watched some more as Drake tentaviely put his hand out and touched Billie Joe’s chin again, and again snatched his hand away. I crawled over and lay on my stomach beside the child.

“Is Uncle Billie’s chin stubbly?” I asked him. He just looked at me and dribbled. I automatically lifted his bib and wiped the drool away. Billie Joe smiled at me.

“Let’s attack Uncle Billie” I whispered to Drake, loud enougyh for Billie Joe to hear as well. I got to my knee’s and lifted Drake up, pushing him playfully onto Billie Joe who made a noise and fell backwards, taking Drake with him. Drake squealed with laughter, so we did it again, and again, and again, and again. Jenn and Mike still weren’t up and I wondered what was goin on.

“I’d better give you a feed huh little man, since Mummy’s not up to do it” I said

“I’ll do it” Billie Joe smiled and got up, going into the kitchen and coming back a few minutes later with a bottle in his hands.

“Come here dude” He said, lifting Drake out of my arms and sitting on the recliner and giving Drake the bottle. Drake held it up to his own mouth and stared up at Billie Joe while he drank. Billie Joe kept looking down at him every so often.

“You want another baby that bad huh?” Tré said. Tré and Taz hadn’t really spoken to either of us much since I got up, they were too busy talking to each other

“When Jaime’s ready” He said.

“Why do you want another baby?” I asked curiously

“I love being a father. Even getting up in the middle of the night to help Adrienne feed either Jakob or Joseph, I loved it all and yeah, even the stinky diapers” He said. I nodded

“but the best part is seeing how they grow up, even though Jack’s only 8 he’s growing up to be an amazing man. And I really want a little girl” He grinned. I laughed and kissed his head as I went past to the kitchen. I started cooking  Bacon and eggs for everyon, though I wasn’t sure who was still here and who wasn’t. I got enough for everyone out.

“Jai” I heard Taz say as she came in

“Yeah?” I answered, turning around

“I just wanted to say thank you for everything and I’m sorry if I messed everything up” She said

“Aww Taz, don’t be sorry, you couldn’t help it” I said going over and giving her a hug

“Thanks for everything” She said. I smiled and let her go.

“We’ve changed so much in the last year huh” I said as she followed me over to where the bacon was sizzling away in the pan

“I know! Who would’ve thunk it” She said. I laughed and stirred the bacon, tossing it every so often and putting 8 pieces of bread under the grill.

“So what’s goin on with you and Frankie?” I asked her. She shrugged.

“I dunno, I guess we’re just friends, same with me and Nick” She said and shrugged again

“Do you want a relationship with him?” I asked

“Yeah, I loved being with him, we had so much fun” She grinned. I laughed and nodded.

“I know” I said and shifted the bacon onto the tray and putting it in the oven. I cracked a few eggs in the pan and waited for them to cook and turning the bread.

“How many people are still here?” I asked her

“As far as I know, everyone is” She shrugged

“Ok” I nodded and got more bread ready. She went back out to the lounge room and I kept cooking.

“Brekky’s on” I called out a little while later and Kev came sleepily though the kitchen door.

“Morning Kev” I grinned and put the food on the table and went back over to the counter where I put on the jug and got coffee cups, putting them, a long with coffee, tea, sugar and milk on the table. Billie Joe came in, carrying Drake on his hip and smiled at me. I grinned back and got the high chair out of the corner and put it at the table. Billie Joe put him in and I put a couple of milk biscuits in front of him as well as his sippie cup of juice. Jesse came out, yawning and stretching and sat down, grabbing a plate and helping herself to some food.

“morning” I said. She groaned in response

“I see you’re like Kev, not a morning person” I said. She shook her head and started eating. I put the jug on the table and she reached for it, making herself a cup of strong black coffee. I grabbed a plater and piled it with food before going over and sitting on the counter since there wasn’t enough room at the table because we’d packed the extra table and chairs up last night.

“This is good” Tré said with a mouthful of food

“Glad you like it” I said making a bacon and egg sandwich and putting BBQ sauce on it and taking a bite.

“Jeez Jai this is orgasmic” Taz said

“thanks” I said, laughing. Nearly everyone had seconds. When everything was covered and cleaned up we went back out to the lounge room and sat around for ages. Jenn and Mike eventually got up and ate before saying they had to get Drake home. He was napping in the downstairs bedroom. Soon enough it was only Taz, Tré, Billie Joe and I left and we went up to the theartre to watch a dvd. Taz and I stupidly let the men pick and of course they picked the scariest DVD I had, When A Stranger Calls. Needless to say I was hiding in Billie Joe’s chest for most of the movie and I noticed Taz cosying up to Tré in the scary bits. The phone rang and Taz and I screamed which amused them both. I just stared at the phone as it rang.

“Jai’s scared” Billie Joe teased as he leaned over me and picked it up, he spoke for a moment and than hung up.

“it was a wrong number” He grinned.

“Yeah and plus, you don’t have any kids here Jai, so it wouldn’t work” Tré said

“Yeah well” I said and we went back to watching the movie.

Chapter 23

Jakob and Joseph were helping me put some decorations on the Christmas tree when Billie Joe finally arrived home from shopping.

“Jesus Christ, I am never doing that again, Jaime, don’t make me do that again” He said lugging all the bags into the kitchen

“Sorry baby” I called after him and grinned at the 2 kids.

“Oh no!” Exclaimed Joseph suddenly

“What?” I asked him, worried, hoping he hadn’t cut himself on one of the branches of the tree. Instead of answering me he grabbed Jakob’s arm and started running towards the kitchen where Billie Joe was banging around. There was still a week before Christmas but it was my family’s tradition to put the tree up when the summer holidays started and I told Billie Joe and although it was winter here and they didn’t put the tree up until the day before Christmas Eve he agreed to let me do my family’s tradition, ‘because he loves me that much’ was what he said. I grinned and asked if we could invite the boys here for Christmas. He called Adrianne and she got a little upset, but agreed, the next day I rang her up and offered her a place to stay for Christmas if she wanted. She accepted and asked if I or Billie Joe could pick her up from the airport on Saturday. I said we all would, she asked me what I wanted for Christmas and I said that I just wanted us all to have fun. Billie Joe and I got her a gift certificate from a nice clothing place for $100 and the boys got her a nice photo frame. Billie Joe came out of the kitchen followed closely by his sons, grabbing up his keys.

“Umm, we have to go out for a little while, will you be cool here by yourself?” He asked me

“Yeah I’ll be right. I’ll wait until you’re all home before we put the angel on though ok? And while you’re gone I’ll start wrapping some presents” I smiled. He grinned and came over, kissing me quickly.

“Be good” I said as they left. I put a few more decorations on the tree and went into kitchen, putting away the groceries. When I finished that I went into the office where I’d hidden all my presents and stared at the stuff Billie Joe and I had gotten  for the boys and wondered if they believed in Santa or not. I grabbed the phone off the cradle and dialled Billie Joe’s mobile number, waiting.

“Hello?” He said loudly. There was a shitload of noise in the background.

“Hey Billie” I said

“What’s up?” He asked and the noise lessened slightly, he might’ve gone down a corridor or something

“Just wondering if the boys believed in Santa” I said

“Yep” He answered

“How many presents do they get usually?” I asked

“All of them are from him” He said

“Oh ok, do you think I should leave it for you and Adrianne to do? The whole Santa thing?” I asked, worried about that now

“No, we can all do it. They usually get 1 present from us” He said

“Ok, well I guess you’d better get some different wrapping paper while your out” I said

“Ok, love you babe” He said

“Love you too” I said and hung up. I put the toys and stuff away and got out the presents for my friends and started wrapping them instead. I didn’t realise how long I’d been wrapping for until I heard the door open and Jack and Joey scuttling upstairs for some reason. I finished the present I was wrapping and went out to see Billie Joe admiring the tree.

“What other traditions do you have? Cos I really like this one” He said, wrapping his arms around me and pulling me against him.

“Well on Christmas day we usually have a water fight” I said

“We could have a food fight instead” Billie Joe suggested

“Hmm, why don’t we start our own tradition for Christmas?” I asked

“Like what?” He asked, kissing my neck gently

“I have no idea” I said with a chuckle

“Why don’t we wait until we’re married to start our own traditions” He said

“Are you guys getting married?” Joseph asked. I jumped and pushed away from Billie Joe who looked guilty

“Are you?” Jakob echoed his brother

“Not for a while, but yeah” Billie Joe said

“So you’re gonna be our Mom?” Joseph asked

“Step-mum” I said

“Don’t tell Mom just yet, we’re not even properly engaged” Billie Joe said

“We promise” The boys said, crossing their fingers over their hearts

“Let’s put the angel on the tree” I said

“We can’t reach” Jakob whined, gazing up to the top of the tree

“That’s what we’re for” I said hoisting him into my arms.

“Dad?” Joseph asked. Billie Joe laughed and lifted his son up. Before we could get the angel on though, the doorbell rang. I put Jakob down and went to the door, pulling it open and seeing Taz, decked out in Christmas stuff with Tré behind her, shaking his head and laughing.

“Merry Christmas Jaime” She yelled and hugged me.

“Merry Christmas Taz” I said laughing. She let me go and went in the house. Tré was still laughing when he hugged me.

“Meey Christmas” He said

“You too, come in” I said. He followed me inside and I saw Taz hugging the 2 boys while Billie Joe shook his head at her.

“You’re just in time to watch us put the Angel on the tree” I said

“Can I get a photo?” Tré asked

“If you have to” Billie Joe grinned.

“Come here” I said to Jakob. He came over and I gave him the angel and lifted him up. Billie Joe and I hoited them up above our heads so they could reach the top of the tree and Tré snapped away.

“Come on, family photo” Tré said when we’d put the boys down

“Yeah yeha” Billie Joe said, still grinning and pulled me closer to him. The boys arranged themselves in front of us and we all smiled at the camera.

“So what are you people doin here anyway?” I asked when he’d taken the photo

“we were bored” Taz piped up

“Well you wanna eat with us?” I asked

“Guess so” Tré said. I nodded and everyone followed me into the kitchen. Billie Joe grabbed out a beer for everyone and poured the boys a glass of coke each. I decided on Pasta bake for dinner. I put the Pasta on to cook and turned the oven on. Jakob and Joseph excused themselves and went to watch TV while Billie Joe, Tré, Taz and I sat in the kitchen and talked and drank. After dinner Tré and Taz went back to Taz’s place and Billie Joe and I played a game with Jakob and Joseph until their bedtime at 9.

“Why did you have to go out again?” I asked Billie Joe as we sat on the lounge listening to some music.

“The boys forgot to get you a present” He said

“Aww they didn’t have to” I said

“Well they did” He grinned. I smiled and lay my head on his shoulder.

“I thought you would’ve gone home for Christmas” He said to me

“My family are coming here” I said

“Where are they staying?” He asked

“With us” I said. He nodded and turned his head, kissing my forehead.

“What kind of wedding do you want?” He asked after a long, comfortable silence

“I dunno, a nice one” I shrugged, lifting my head and turning to look at him

“Do you have any idea?” He asked

“What do you want?” I asked

“A decent one, maybe one that goes for longer than 5 minutes, with more than 4 people there” He said

“In a church?” I asked

“I’m not christened” He said

“Oh ok, strike the church than” I said

“Do you want a church wedding?” He asked

“Kinda, I’m catholic, so yeah” I said

“I can get christened” He said

“It doesn’t matter that much” I said

“Are you sure?” He asked

“Yeah and plus I’ve always wanted to get married on the great barrier reef” I grinned

“You wanna get married in Australia?” He asked

“Yeah, but we don’t have to” I said

“I will do anything you want for our wedding day” He said, giving me a squeeze. I smiled.

“I don’t want a huge wedding or anything, but I would like all my family to be there and my friends too” I said

“Of course” He said

“I’m not really interested in a truly traditional wedding, but I would like to wear white but at the same time, I wanna punk it up” I said. He laughed.

“Why don’t we have a traditional ceremony and than punk it up at the reception” He said

“Oh fuck yeah, I’m loving that idea” I said, sitting up straighter

“You still gonna wear a dress?” He asked

“Oh yeah, like the grammy’s” I grinned. He laughed and grinned back.

“What about a honeymoon?” He asked

“The bahama’s?” I asked

“If you want” He said

“But what do you want?” I asked

“Baby I’ve been married before, none of this is new to me, I experienced it, this is your day and I want you to have it exactly the way you want it” He said

“But I want you to have the things you want too” I said

“I’ve already told you what I want” He said, kissing my cheek

“Alright than” I said

“Let’s start planning it when we’re actually engaged” He said in my ear

“Deal” I said

“Wanna go to Disneyland for New Years?” he asked

“Fuck yeah, I still haven’t been there” I said

“You’ve been in America for what? 4 years? And you haven’t been to Disnye?” He asked

“And you have?” I asked

“When we got signed to Reprise we each got a shitload of money, I put it away straight away and when Jack and Joey were both old enough I took them to Disney” He said

“So you’ve been once in 34 years?” I asked

“5 times actually” He grinned. I laughed and punched him playfully.

“I’m gonna go to bed, you comin?” I asked

“Yeah I’ll be up in a while, I’m gonna wrap a couple of presents first” He said. I nodded and kissed him gently before going up the stairs and to our room. As it got closer to Christmas I got more and more excited until my mum rang me, the day before her, my sister and my brother were to arrive.

“Merry Christmas” I said to her cheerily

“Not so merry” Mum answered

“Why, what’s wrong?” I asked, grabbing my smokes and going out to the deck

“Pop’s gotten sick, we can’t come over there this year” She said sadly

“What? Is he ok?” I asked

“He had another fall because he had a heart attack” She said, getting close to tears. My grandfather was getting old and we all knew it wasn’t long before he’d pass away.

“Do you want me to come home?” I asked

“No you stay in America with Billie Joe and have a good Christmas. We’ll let you know in plenty of time if anything happens” She said

“Ok” I said reluctantly

“Have fun sweetie” She said

“You too, give everyone my love” I said

“I will. Bye” She said

“Bye” I said and hung up slowly.

“You ok?” Billie Joe asked me, touching my thigh gently. We were in the theatre watching a dvd with the boys.

“My pop’s sick so mum, Jules and Justin can’t come over anymore” I said

“Oh honey” He said pulling me into a hug and kissing my head.

“I guess I’ll see them while we’re in Australia for the tour” I said, shrugging

“Yeah” He said

“Do you wanna get married while you’re there? Me and the boys can fly over” He whispered in my ear

“No, I want a proper wedding and if Pop isn’t there to see it, well bad luck I guess” I said with a sigh

“Are you sure?” He asked. I nodded. He kissed me and we went back to the movie.. The next day we had to go to the airport and pick up Adrianne. I got upset knowing I wasn’t gonna pick up my family too but I put on a happy face for everyone. When Adrriane came from the gate she made a beeline for her sons and than hugged Billie Joe and I together.

“Thank you so much for letting me stay. I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you both” She said

“It doesn’t matter now, let’s go and get ready for Christmas” I said with a grin. She smiled and we all carried her bags to the car. I offered to sit in the back with the boys, but she refused me and instead sat with them. Billie Joe was driving.

“Oh I hate this song” I said leaning forwards to switch channels on the radio

“But isn’t it one of yours?” Adrianne asked

“Jaime doesn’t like listening to her own songs after release” billie Joe piped up, laying his hand on my leg

“Unlike yourself who not only owns all his own cd’s but actually went out and bought them” I replied

“I did not” He answered, pouting at me

“No, I did, on his behalf” Adrianne said from the backseat. The 3 of us cracked up laughing. The rest of the drive wasn’t really all that interesting, we just talked. When we got home Adrianne commented on what a beautiful house it was and after we showed her to her room we gave her a tour. Billie Joe cooked us all dinner and we watched Christmas cartoons on TV until 9 when we all put the boys to bed. I thought the conversation between the 3 of us would end when the boys ent to bed, but we talked and drank wine until 3am. I was laying in bed, when Billie Joe came out from the bathroom after his shower wearing only his towel. I wolf whistled quietly. He grinned and did a twirl before crawling on top of me.

“Hey baby” He said between kisses

“Hey yourself” I replied

“Wanna make love?” He asked, moving his lips from mine to my neck

“Not with your ex wife 2 doors down and your kids across the hall” I said, wrapping my arms around him

“Come on, the door’s locked” He said

“No” I said and pushed him away. He pouted, but got off me. He dropped his towel and crawled under the covers with me. Neither of us usually slept naked. He lay on his side, facing me with his hand on my stomach.

“Don’t even try it Billie” I said when I felt him inch his hand towards the waistband of my pyjama pants

“Why not?” He asked

“Billie, please I’m really not in the mood right now” I said, sitting up

“Ok, I’m sorry” He said

“Go and have another shower” I said, eyeing the lump forming beneath the covers

“Yeah yeah” He laughed and slipped out of bed, wrapping his towel back around his waist. I lay back down and pulled the covers around me, closing my eyes. I heard the shower turn on again and chuckled to myself before drifting off to sleep. Over the next couple of days Adrianne, Billie Joe and I discussed Christmas eve and who would put out presents. It was Adrianne who suggested the 3 of us do it. Before dinner on Christmas Eve Billie Joe took Jack and Joey to the park for a little while which left Adrianne and I to wrap last minute santa presents. We were sitting in the lounge room surrounded by some presents, a beer each and gaudy Christmas carols playing on the stereo.

“Jaime” She said as I helped her wrap a particularly big present for Billie Joe

“Yeah?” I answered, shifting my fingers before she sticky taped them down

“I just wanted to say that I’m really sorry about what happened earlier in the year, with the baby” She said

“Oh, thanks” I said

“I’m not trying to start an argument or anything but it’s been killing me inside and I need to know. Was it really Billie’s?” She asked

“Yeah it was, he was the only one I didn’t use a condom with” I said

“Are you gonna try for another?” She asked me. I shrugged.

“Jaime, come on, tell me the truth, I’m not gonna get mad or jealous I’m really happy that you’ve found happiness with each other” She said with a genuine smile

“We haven’t really talked about it” I said. Well that part was true, we hadn’t talked much about another baby.

“Engaged?” She asked

“Unofficially” I said, struggling to keep the smile from my face

“Seriously?” She asked. I nodded, not looking at her. She squealed and tackled me in a hug. I started laughing and hugged her back, shocked that she was this happy about it.

“It’s about bloody time. I thought for sure he would’ve asked you ages ago” She said

“Well I told him I didn’t want to get married and than the more I thought about it, the more I fell in love with him and the more I wanted to spend my life with him” I said, smiling

“That is so good” She gushed

“He hasn’t shown me the ring yet, although I know he has one” I said

“No doubt it’ll be gorgeous” She said

“What did your engagement ring look like?” I asked her

“I didn’t want one, so he didn’t get me one” She said

“Oh ok” I said. We finished wrapping the presents and put some under the tree and hid the rest for later on tonight and than we both finished getting dinner ready. It was a special occasion so we cooked a special meal. A roast Chicken with baked vegetables, gravy and homemade bread.

“We’re back” Billie Joe yelled as they came through the door

“Kitchen” I replied as I stirred the gravy and Adrianne got out the roast.

“Oh god that smells good” He said as he came in. He went over and peeked over Adriannes shoulder and than came over to me, wrapping his arms around my waist and kissing my cheek and neck.

“Does christmas time make you horny or something?” I asked. Adrianne cracked up laughing.

“Oh come on, this is gonna be our first Christmas together, you can’t expect me to not want sex” he said

“New years eve I promise” I said. He kissed my cheek again and stepped away.

“I’ll get the boys ready for dinner, if it’s ready” He said

“Yep” I answered and put the gravy in a gravy boat and set it on the table. Adrianne carried the roast over and put it in front of Billie Joe’s place. I grabbed a beer out for the 3 of us and got the juice out for the boys and put them on the table. The boys came out and sat at their places at the table. Billie Joe waited until Adrianne and I had sat down before he did.

“Did you wanna say grace?” He asked me quietly

“Not until tomorrow” I smiled. He nodded and started carving the meat up for us all. After dinner the boys kept asking us if they could open one present but we said no. They weren’t real impressed, but soon got over it when I started playing snakes and ladders with them. At 9 We let them put out milk and cookies and a carrot for Rudolph and than wished them a Merry Christmas and put them to bed. We came back downstairs and I eyed the cookies and milk.

“We used to put out a VB, a piece of fruit cake and 2 Carrots” I said

“Beer?” Billie Joe asked

“Yeah, well the Australian santa clause wore stubbies, a singlet and thongs, don’t you know” I said quietly. They both laughed.

We waited for 2 hours and than They sent me up to check if they were asleep. I stuck my head in the door and listened. They both sounded asleep. I watched them for 5 minutes and than went back down stairs.

“They’re asleep” I said

“Well let’s do this” Billie Joe said. I tried to keep the grin off my face, but I couldn’t.

“It’s exciting the first few years you do it” Adrianne grinned back. I laughed and followed them back out, with an armload of presents. We separated them into piles and sat up and talked for a while before going to bed. I snuggled up to Billie Joe and wished him and Merry Christmas before going to sleep.

“It’s Christmas morning, wake up” Yelled Jakob, jumping on the bed behind me and throwing himself on top of me and shaking both Billie Joe and I wake.

“We’re up, we’re up” Billie Joe said

“Merry Christmas” Jakob said giving me a sloppy kiss on the cheek.

“Merry Christmas Jack” I said hugging him. He threw himself on top of Billie Joe and I sat up and yawned, looking at the clock. It was 6:30am.

“Does every kid get up this early?” I asked Billie Joe as he hugged and kissed his son.

“Get used to it babe” He grinned at me. Joseph came into our room pulling Adrianne behind him. I moved over closer to Billie Joe and patted the bed beside me. Adrianne smiled gratefully and got under the covers beside me.

“Come on, let’s go and see if santa came” Joey whined

“It’s too cold” Adrianne said

“Yeah” I answered

“You 4 stay here, I’ll go light the fire” Billie Joe grinned and got out of bed

“Christmas kiss?” I asked him. He grinned and leaned over Jack to kiss me.

“Merry Christmas” He said when he broke the kiss.

“Merry Christmas Billie” I answered. He gave Adrianne a hug and kiss ont eh cheek and disappeared out of the room.

“Merry Christmas” I said hugging Adrianne and also kissing her cheek

“Merry Christmas to you too Jaime. This is your first Christmas with an instant family, do you like it so far?” She asked, while the boys got under the covers as well

“It’s gonna be interesting, but yeah I like it” I grinned. She laughed.

“It’s warming up downstairs” Billie Joe said, coming back into the room

“Carry me daddy” Jakob asked

“And me” Joseph said

“Alright. Joey jump on my back” He said turning around near the end of the bed. Joey jumped on and Billie Joe bounced him until he was comfortable and than turned around, holding his arms out for Jack, lifting him up easily.

“What about us?” I asked pouting

“Nope, you’ll both have to walk” He grinned. Adrianne and I laughed and got out of bed. I pulled on one of Billie Joe’s jumpers and offered Adrianne one. She took it and we followed him downstairs.

“He came!” Jakob exclaimed happily when Billie Joe set them down. They ran over to the presents and sat down.

“Coffee?” I asked

“Yes please” Billie Joe said.

“I’ll come help” Adrianne said.

“Don’t open anything until we get back” I said

“We won’t” The 3 males answered. Adrianne followed me into the kitchen and we got coffee ready and I got out the breakfast stuff.

“What are we having?” She asked me

“A Traditional Cobain family breakfast. Pancakes, bacon, eggs, toast, coffee and juice” I grinned

“Your family always had that for breakfast?” She asked

“Uh huh, every year for as long as I remember” I grinned. When the coffee was ready we carried it back out to the lounge room and I made myself comfortable in front of the fire on the floor.

“Can we open them now?” Jakob asked

“Go ahead sweetheart” Adrianne answered. He brought 4 of his presents over and dropped in my lap. I looked over at Billie Joe, shocked and he just smiled and nodded. Joseph sat between Adrianne and Billie Joe’s feet. It took about an hour and a half for the boys to open all their presents and then they dutifully handed out their presents to us. I opened the small package and found a recent picture of Billie Joe and his sons.

“Aww it’s perfect, I love it thank you” I said hugging them both. They got Billie Joe 5 new guitar picks and Adrianne loved the frame they made for her. After that they played with their toys while Adrianne, Billie Joe and I gave each other presents. When we were finished Billie Joe offered to help me cook breakfast while Adrianne played with Jack and Joey. When we were in the kitchen he hoisted me up on to the counter and stood between my legs.

“You happy?” He asked me

“Of course I am, I have you and the boys and Adrianne here” I answered, playing with the hair at the back of his necka dn smiling at him

“Thank you for the present” He said, pecking my lips

“Anytime” I answered, hugging him. We ate breakfast and got the boys ready and their presents in their room and than started setting up for lunch. When it was ready and all the food was cut up I went to ring my family.

“Merry Christmas” I said

“You too” Justin said to me

“How’s pop?” I asked

“He’s in surgery right now. Mum and Jules are sleeping” He said

“ATell them I called?” I asked

“I will” He said

“Love you” I said

“Love you too, have a good day” He said. I slowly hung up and quickly lit a smoke, going out into the cool air. I heard the door opena dn turned around to see Jenn.

“Hey, merry Christmas” She grinned, hugging me

“merry Christmas, how was it?” I asked

“It was good. Mike was so good with Drake, oh my god Jai” She gushed. Nick came out followed by Tré and Taz and the 3 of them hugged me tight and yelled in my ear. When we’d all gotten a plate of food we sat at the tables we’d set up and Billie Joe cleared his throat.

“Jaime would like to say grace” He said.I did the sign of the cross and bowed my head.

“Dear lord, thank you for the food we are about to eat. Please look after all of us in the future. Amen” I said and couldn’t help my self.

“Can I get another amen?” I sang. All my friends yelled ‘Amen’ back to me and we cracked up laughing before starting to eat.

Chapter 24

“What are you wearing tonight?” Jenn asked me, as her, Taz and I sat in the lounge room listening to scary 70’s and 80’s music while Billie Joe, Tré and Mike mucked around in the music room. Tré had bought me a drum kit for Christmas, for what reason, I don’t know, maybe so he could play it while he was here.

“I dunno, it’s too cold to go punk” I said

“What about a those jeans you bought before Christmas, your black shirt and a tie with that long leather jacket” Taz suggested

“That could work” I nodded

“Or the woollen jacket you have, the black one” Jenn said

“Yeah” I said, trying to picture the outfits in my head

“Or you could wear my skirt, the black shirt, tie and one of the jackets” Jenn added

“And your boots and fishnets” Taz added

“Yeah I’m likin that one” I grinned

“I’m so glad Kev offered to look after Drake tonight” Jenn said

“Yeah it wouldn’t be any fun if you weren’t there” Taz said

“It’d suck” I agreed

“What are you girls wearing?” I asked after a while

“My grammy’s dress” Jenn laughed

“Yeah same” Taz said

“Fair enough” I said and started singing along to Ring My Bell by Anita ward

“I think we should try and do a punk version of Feeling Good” Taz said

“Oh fuck yeah, that’d be hott” I grinned

“Hell yeah” Jenn said, also grinning

“Does, BJ know Part Time Boyfriend is about him, Jai?” Taz asked

“Probably, but if not he’ll find out when he reads the liner notes” I grinned, laughing. They laughed too.

“What you girlies talking about?” Mike asked as the 3 of them came in

“One of Jaime’s songs that are on the album” Jenn said

“Which one?” Billie Joe asked

“Part Time Boyfriend” Taz said

“Ahh the song about me” Billie Joe grinned

“How do you know? It could’ve been about Tré” I said

“You only slept with Tré twice, we’ve been sleeping together for a good year and a half now” He said, grinning again

“True” I said

“Are you gonna have a few beers tonight?” Billie Joe asked me, leaning down to kiss my head

“Nah, might just drink Coke tonight” I said

“Fair enough. Are you girls drinking?” He asked the others

“hell yeah!” Taz exclaimed

“yeah I might have a few” Jenn said, shrugging.

“I need your alcoholic drink order so we can go get some” Mike said

“Can you get me some smokes while you’re out?” I asked Billie Joe

“Uh huh” He answered

“Their’s money in my wallet” I said

“It’s ok, I got it” He smiled He was wearing the shirt I gave him for Christmas. It was a black long sleeve shirt with ‘punk’ scrawled in  red on the front and ‘rocker’ again scrawled in red on the back. He seemed to like it. I didn’t know if he did or not though. When they came back we’d just finished dying Taz’s hair silver for tonight.

“You’re goin grey a little prematurely aren’t you?” Mike asked Taz

“It’s silver” She protested

“Oh ok” He said and rolled his eyes playfully. I laughed when she reached out and smacked him.

“Drinks for everyone” Billie Joe said, passing out beers and handing me a glass of coke. I smiled. They disappeared back into the music room and left us alone again.

“You think he’ll do it tonight?” Jenn asked

“Nah, it’s not his style” I said shaking my head

“I think he will” Taz said, nodding

“Well fuckin shut up and let me forget about it so it can be a bloody surprise” I whined. They both laughed.

“Let’s get your hair dyed, Jai” Jenn grinned. I nodded and we went back into the downstairs bathroom. I was dying my hair a really dark brown and than bleaching parts and putting pink, blue and green through it in random areas. It was gonna look so hott. It took a good 3 hours to do my hair and by the time we were finished Taz and Jenn were both pretty drunk. It was about 8 so we all started getting ready. Billie Joe and I went to our room and I watched him go through his clothes slowly, figuring out what to wear.

“Have I washed my shirt yet? The one you gave me?” He asked

“No, but I have, it’s in the basket” I grinned at him. He smiled and went through the basket, pulling the folded and ironed shirt out and pulling it on, as well as a pair of jeans. He looked in the mirror and shook his head.

“Why don’t you wear a shirt over that and your tie?” I asked him as I pulled on a pair of black stockings and than my blue fishnets over that.

“But you won’t be able to see the writing” He said

“So? There’s gonna be shitloads of other times you can wear the shirt” I grinned and slipped on a pair of lacy knickers, He looked me over and raised his eyebrows.

“I’ve never seen those before” He said

“You obviously don’t take much notice of what I’m wearing before you undress me than, do you” I tteased. He grinned and turned back to the mirror, pulling on his short sleeved black button up shirt and grabbing his red tie. I pulled on Taz’s red tartan skirt and attached various chains and also a pair of red braces which hung down at the back. I pulled on my black shirt and also put on my red tie and than I found my long black woollen coat and put it over my arm, before bending down to grab my black converse shoes.

“Holy shit baby, you look hott” Billie Joe said, looking be over

“Mmm, thank you gorgeous, you look hott too” I said, kissing his cheek as I went past. Downstairs, when I walked into the lounge room Taz and Jenn squealed and started clapping.

“Fucking hell you look good!” Taz exclaimed

“Yeah?” I asked

“Fuck yeah!” Jenn yelled. I grinned and sat down to put my shoes on, then I went into the bathroom and put my hair in messy pigtail and put eyeliner on. Taz and Jenn crowded in behind me, also doing their hair and eyeliner. They’d both altered their dresses to  accommodate the weather. They had on black long sleeve shirts underneath and had put black stockings on under their fishnets like me. When we went back out to the lounge room, Tré, Mike and Billie Joe were all dressed and ready, nursing a beer each.

“Ready?” Billie Joe asked

“Uh huh, let’s go” I grinned. They finished their beers while I locked the house up and grabbed my keys.

“Are you driving?” Billie Joe askled

“Yeah well I’m not drinking, so I may as well drive” I shrugged

“Don’t drive, how boring, we’ll get a taxi” Tré grinned. I shrugged and dropped my keys and rang for a taxi. I put opn my jacket and we all went outside to wait. I noticed Billie Joe was a bit jumpy and nervous looking but I put it down to the beer, since he’d had a few, but wasn’t quite drunk yet. The taxi arrived and we all piled in.

“Disney, please” Said Mike. I lay my hand on Billie Joe’s thigh and smiled at him. He grinned back and gave me a quick kiss. When we arrived we split the bill and went over to the ticket line which was absolutely chocker block. We waited inline for about an hour before we could pay and go in.

“There’s still 2 hours before the midnight fireworks, do you wanna go on some rides?” Mike asked us all

“I don’t do rides” Taz said with a bit of an embarrassed grin

“Why not?” Tré asked, pouting at her

“I get real bad motion sickness” She said

“Well that’s ok, we can go scope out a jawesome place to watch the fireworks” He grinned at her.

“Gimme two Tré” I said Holding out my fingers in the ‘rock’ symbol

“Why?” He asked, giving me two anyway

“You said Jawesome” I said. Taz was chuckling

“Oh yeah, guess I been hanging out with you girls for far too long” He said with a shrug and a grin

“You and Taz piss off to find a good place, we’re gonna hit the rides” Jenn said, pushing them away

“We’re goin” Taz said. Tré grabbed her hand and held it tightly as they walked away. Billie Joe put his arm around my waist as we walked in the opposite direction with Jenn and Mike who were holding hands. The first ride we went on was the Tower Of Terror. I don’t know who clung to who more, me or Billie Joe. Next we went on a tame-ish ride, the Teacups and than Taz rang us to say we should start making our way over because all these people were trying to push her and Tré out of the way. When we reached them Tré was standing up and facing a group of guys with his fists clenched and Taz was right beside him with her fists clenched. The guys saw Us coming and backed down slightly.

“Here, got you a present” I said handing a beer each to Taz and Tré and stepping in front of them.

“Thanks” Tré mumbled. We were up on a bit of a hill right near a railing looking down over the rest of Disneyland. We would have an awesome view of the fireworks from here. I opened my bottle of coke and took a sip as I leaned against the railing, with Billie Joe behind me with his arms wrapped around my waist and his chin resting on my shoulder. At 11:55 everyone started getting excited and I could feel Billie Joe getting tense. I wondered what was wrong, but didn’t ask. He went and talked to Mike for a second and than came back over, wrapping his arms around me again, he had another beer.

“Not long now” I said

“I know, how exciting” He said with a chuckle. The countdown began when there was 10 seconds left and we all joined in. At midnight there were explosions as fireworks erupted from different places and Billie Joe spun me around and kissed me.

“Happy New Year” He said in my ear

“Happy New Year Billie” I answered. He turned me around again and hugged me tightly from behind as we watched the fireworks. I glanced over at Tré and saw him give Taz a peck on the lips and than I saw Mike and Jenn behind them having a big pash. I smiled and turned back to the fireworks. There was an explosion behind us and everyone turned around. My hand flew to my mouth when I saw it and I turned to where Billie Joe should’ve been standing and found him down one 1 knee holding up a ringbox. The sign that was about 100 feet away was lit up in all different colours but the words stood out the most. They said ‘Marry Me Jaime’.

“Yes” I said, turning back to Billie Joe. He slipped the ring on my finger and stood up, hugging me tight. Jenn and Taz pulled me away from him and hugged me while everyone around us cheered and clapped. Tré and Mike were congratulating Billie Joe when another sign lit up, saying ‘Congratulations Billie and Jaime’ and I started laughing and pulled away from my friends, going over to hug Billie Joe again.

“What would you have done if I’d said no?” I asked

“I wouldn’t have let you see that sign” He grinned.

“God I love you” I said

“I love you too” He answered, kissing me again. Random people came over and congratulated us and Tré appeared with a bottle of champagne.

“So this is why you didn’t want me to drive” I said, taking the glass he offered me. He grinned and nodded. I looked down at the ring again and smiled. I felt Billie Joe’s hand on my back and smiled some more.

“Happy new year” I said holding up my glass

“Happy new year” Everyone around me repeated and we downed our champagne.

5 Days Later

“Oh god it’s far to early for this bullshit” I mumbled as my alarm went off and I sat up It was 4am. Billie Joe rolled onto his back and sighed.

“Did you really have to let Kev get a flight for this early?” He asked

“He said this was the best he could do” I answered and slipped out of the bed and shivering in the cool air.

“Want me to get up too?” He asked

“No it’s ok, you sleep” I answered, leaning down to kiss his head.

“I’ll get up” He said and threw the covers back. I laughed and went into the bathroom, pulling on a jumper as I went. Downstairs I started making everyone breakfast. Billie Joe appeared in the kitchen wearing his jeans, but no shirt.

“Aren’t you cold?” I asked

“Not with you around” He answered, wrapping his arms around me from behind and kissing my neck as I flipped eggs over.

“When are we gonna start planning our wedding?” He asked, letting me go and sitting at the table as I put coffee in front of him

“I guess we could start now. I’d really like to get married in Australia, but we don’t have to” I said

“I’d love to get married in Australia” He said

“Well I can start checking some places out, around Tamworth, my home town. The botanical gardens are pretty” I said

“I thought you wanted to get married in a church” He yawned as Jenn and Mike appeared. Mike was Carrying Drake who looked really sleepy. I got his sippie cup and poured a juice as Mike put him in the high chair. Jenn came over and started helping me with breakfast while Mike sat with Billie Joe

“But you’re not christened” I answered as Jenn stuck toast under the grill and grinned at me.

“I said I’d get christened” He said

“And if I’m not mistaken, I told you you didn’t have to” I said

“What if I want to?” He asked

“Well, I can’t exactly stop you” I said

“Good, it’s settled, I’ll get Christened and we can get married in a Church in Tamworth” He said

“Ok” I said blowing him a kiss

“Spring, summer, autumn or winter?” He asked. Mike and Jenn were laughing at us by now

“What?” I answered, confused

“When do you wanna gedt married? Spring, summer, autumn or winter?” He repeated

“I dunno” I said

“Spring is nice” He said

“we can get married in spring. That’ll make it around September, in Australia” I said

“That sounds nice” He answered

“How many people do you wanna invite?” I asked

“Well, my brothers and sisters of course, my mom, the boys, these guys… Everyone else I know and like” He said

“So that’s what 100?” I asked

“More like 200” He grinned sheepishly

“I don’t know 200 people, my side of the church will be slightly empty” I said

“Ok how about we invite 50 each” He shrugged. I nodded, shrugging. Taz came out not long after and raised her eyebrows at us when she heard our conversation.

“You’ve been engaged for like 2 seconds, maybe you should just let that settle in for a while” She said. Tré came out a minute later and this time I raised my eyebrows at Taz.

“Oh yeah, Tré stayed too, is that ok?” She asked

“Yeah, but-“ I started

“I slept on the floor, promise” Tré grinned

“I don’t care if you share a bed” I laughed

“Well what’s that look for?” Taz asked

“It’d be nice to know who’s sleeping in my house BEFORE they get up” I said laughing again. Jenn and I put all the food on the tbale and we dug in. At 5:30 we got our shit together and went to the airport and booked our luggage in. When our flight got called Billie Joe pulled me into a hug.

“I’ll see you in 3 weeks” He said

“Mm, behave yourself” I replied, as he brushed his lips against mine

“Always” He grinned

“I’ll call you when we get to the hotel” I said

“Ok, but I’ll probably be asleep” He said

“Well I’ll call you when I know you won’t be asleep” I said

“Call me when you get to the hotel” He said. I nodded. Jenn started dragging me away.

“What am I gonna say about this?” I asked holding up my left hand and pointing to the ring

“Just tell them the truth, who cares?” He said. I nodded and wrapped my arms around him.

“I love you” I said

“I love you too baby. Have a good trip” He said

“I will” I answered and gave him a quick kiss. I quickly hugged Mike and Tré and followed Jenn and Taz down the gateway. The flight was uneventful. We mainly slept. Towards the end of the flight I woke up and couldn’t get to sleep again so I got out my notebook and a pencil and started drawing the type of wedding dress I might like. Just before we landed I woke Taz and Jenn up and we gathered our stuff together and waited for instructions. When we were allowed off I smiled and hurriedly left the plane. When we got our luggage and stuff we found Kev waiting for us in the waiting area. He’d flown out 3 days ago to check out the SCG and make sure all our stuff was there and all that. We changed our watches to Aussie time as we got a taxi to the hotel where we were staying. I thought about going to bed, but instead I went to Kev’s room and knocked ont eh door.

“What’s up?” He asked when he saw it was me

“I just wanted to let you know that I was going to see my Pop at RPA” I said

“Oh ok, sure, you need me come with you?” He asked

“No it’s ok. I just gotta ring Billie and than I’m leaving” I said. He nodded. I went back to my room and dialled Billie Joe’s number, waiting.

“Hello” He said sleepily

“Hey babe, I’m in Sydney” I said

“Oh ok, that’s good” He said and I heard him rolling over

“We had a good flight but I’ll talk to you later, when we’re both not so tired” I chuckled

“I can stay awake for you” He said

“No, it’s ok. I love you” I said

“Love you too sweetie” He answered. I hung up and laughed to myself before changing my clothes. It was mid summer here and stinking hot. I put on a pair of punk shorts and my black top and red tie and redid my eyeliner. I pulled on my converse shoes and grabbed everything I’d need, including my drivers license. I didn’t intend on catching a bus or train anywhere unless absolutely necessary. I realized that being a p plater kept me from hiring a car so I went back down to Kev’s room and knocked again.

“you want me to hire you a car right?” He asked

“Yeah” I grinned

“Thought so, let’s go” He said. I laughed and followed him to the elevator. As we rode down, neither of us spoke, but when we reached the bottom and the doors opened, Kev pulled me over to some chairs and sat me down, sitting beside me.

“I need to talk to you” He said

“Ok” I said

“BJ and I have been talking on the phone a lot” He said

“So?” I shrugged

“He wants Adeline Records to take over the contract for Dysfunct” He said

“Really?” I asked

“He wanted me to speak to you about it before he put in the negotiations. Which are a shit load better than what Jive is offering you now” He said

“Why couldn’t he talk to me about it?” I asked

“Well he’s not allowed” He answered

“Oh ok, fair enough. What do you think?” I asked

“I think you should accept the deal” He said

“Will you still manage us?” I asked curiously

“No, I won’t be allowed. Apparently Tré will be your manager” He said. I started laughing.

“I can’t see Tré managing us. He’d let us get our way far too much for his own good and plsu, I think he’s rooting Taz again” I said

“Somehow, Jai, I don’t think Tré will be that easy going” He said

“I dunno…” I trailed off, still laughing slightly

“I want to have a meeting with you all before Billie Joe gets here, so we can decide together if it’s what you want” He said

“That sounds good” I nodded.

“Let’s go get you a car” He said. I laughed and we went to the reception desk. Kev hired the car, a Holden Astra Convertible and walked outside with me and away from the doors before handing me the keys.

“PLEASE don’t get pulled over by the police” He said to me

“Promise” I answered as I climbed into the car. I started it up and put the top down and grinned at him.

“Cya in a few hours” I said

“Be careful” He called out as I started to drive away. I waved at him and pulled into peek hour, Sydney traffic. Although the Hospital was Near Newtown, which wasn’t far from the city at all it took me over an hour to get there and when I did, I couldn’t find a parking space for Half an hour. When I did finally find one I parked, put the top up, got out and locked it before going inside and to the front desk. On the way I’d called mum to let her know I was coming.

“Hi, I’m looking for Keith Cobain” I said. The murse glanced up at me, half smiled and typed something into the computer.

“He’s in the ICU on floor 5, if you take that elevator over there up and walk straight from there you’ll come to the desk, you can ask for more information there” She said. I nodded, thanked her and turned off my mobile before I tookt eh elevator up to the floor. I got to the desk and rang the bell, waiting 10 minutes before someone appeared.

“Sorry about that. What can I help you with?” She asked

“I’m looking for my grandfather, Keith Cobain” I said

“Ahh, you must Be Jaime, you’re family are expecting you. This way” She said. I smiled and followed her through the door. She asked me to wash my hands and I did so before following her through another door and into the ward. She lead me past separate rooms and when I spotted Julia, I thanked her and hurried over.

“Hey stranger” She said quietly, giving me a hug and a quick kiss on the cheek.

“Hey Jules, what’s up?” I asked

“Nothing, mum’s just gone to get nan. What’s this?” She asked, picking up my left hand and admiring the engagement ring.

“Billie proposed on New Years Night” I smiled

“Congratulations” She said hugging me again. I smiled and went over to pop, who was dozing. He looked older than I remembered. I gave his cheek a kiss and took the free seat next to Julia.

“How is he?” I asked

“He’s not so good” She whispered. I nodded, looking away.

“They say maybe 2 months at the most. It could be any day now really” She said. Tears welled up in my eyes and I struggled to hold them back.

“Are you going to get married before he does… go?” She asked, also getting tears in her eyes

“I wasn’t going to, but now that I’m here and I’ve seen him…” I trailed off

“I think he’d really like you to get married” She said

“What about you? Are you gonna get married before he passes away?” I asked

“I’m not getting married anymore. He cheated on me” She said simply

“Jules, I’m so sorry” I said. She shrugged and smiled.

“I didn’t REALLY wanna get married anyway” She said

“But still… what an ass” I said. When mum and nan arrived I hugged them both tihtly and told them I was getting married. Mum gave me a bit of a once over.

“I’m not pregnant” I said. She laughed and nodded. I stayed for a good four hours, but pop didin’t wake up. I said I’d be back when I didn’t have much to do with the tour and left. I drove back to the hotel and went up to Kev’s room to tell him I was back. He was on the phone. I waved and left again. Down in my room I had a shower and got into my pyjamas before laying on the semi comfortable bed with the TV on. The good thing about Australian TV was, even if you didn’t like what you were watching, it was better than nothing. I flicked through the free2air channels and settled on the Friday Night Football. Taz would’ve loved this. I ordered room service and asked specifically for beer and pizza, enough for 4. They said it would be about 10 minutes. I decided to ring Taz’s room, thinking ‘what the hell’. She answered after a while and she sounded so sleepy it was funny.

“Hey Taz, there’s beer and pizza and football in my room” I said

“What?” She asked

“Friday Night Football Tara” I said

“Oh, fuck yeah, I’ll be there in like 2 seconds” She said and hung up. I thought I may as well call Jenn too.

“Hello” She said. She sounded a little bit more awake than Taz did.

“Hey Jenn, did you wanna come and watch the football with me and Taz?” I asked her

“Yeah I spose, Can I bring Drake?” She asked

“You don’t need to ask me that. He can play on the bed” I said

“I’ll be there in a few” She said. I hung up and went and opened the door for Taz. She came in made herself comfortable on the bed and grinned at me. When Jenn arrived I realized we were all in our pyjamas and laughed. I helped her set Drakes little travel cot up while Taz played with him and than we put him inside with his toys. Jenn also got on the bed and made herself comfortable. Before I could the beer and Pizza arrived. I opened the door and the bell boy wheeled the cart in.

“Compliments of your Fiancee Ma’am” He said with a smile, handing me a bottle of Bundy Rum.

“Oh ripper, thanks” I said, smiling. I grabbed a $20 note from my wallet and gave it to him. I pushed the cart over to the bed and handed out pizza and beer, deciding to save the rum for last.

“Not that this will mean much to me but who’s playing?” Jenn asked

“Knights and Roosters” Taz said

“Go the knights!” I cheered.

“While we’re in Australia we should go to a game” Jenn suggested

“Hell yeah, that’d be awesome” I grinned. We pigged out on the pizza and Taz and I both got right into the game, screaming at the TV when the Knights did something wrong or when they didn’t tackle a Roosters player and cheering mega loud when Knights scored or we made a good tackle on a Roosters player. It must’ve been funny to listen to and to watch. By the end of it we had Jenn getting right into it too, chanting ‘send’im off’ to every roosters player that got pulled up. When the football was over, although I was well and truly jetlagged and the alcohol didn’t help, we decided to sit up and talk for a while.

“So what’s goin on with you and Mikey?” Taz asked Jenn who smiled.

“He’s really nice, good in bed, good with Drake. We’ve talked, he doesn’t want to get married though” She said

“You don’t wanna get married either, well, not to him anyway” I said, eyeing her

“No” She said, looking away

“Frick, I’ve seen the way you look at him and they way he looks back when he catches you” I said. She chuckled.

“Who are we talking about?” Taz whined

“Kev” Jenn said, nodding

“Again? Aww” She said

“What are you gonna do?” I asked

“Break it off with Mike, maybe wait for a little while than talk to him” She said

“Fair enough” I nodded

“What about you and Mr Cool, huh?” Jenn asked Taz

“I swear to you both there’s nothing to tell” She said

“There must be something” I said

“We’re just friends right now. I’m still hell confused about everything. He said he’d wait. Nick said the same. I don’t know. Stupid boys” She said

“Who do you think about more, Tré or Nick?” I asked

“Tré, I guess”S eh said

“You’ll work it out sooner or later” Jenn said and than they both looked at me

“What?” I asked

“How’re you and BJ goin?” Taz asked

“We’re going good, otherwise we wouldn’t be engaged” I said with a grin

“Are you gonna get married so your pop can be there?” Taz asked

“I don’t know” I shrugged. We talked for another couple of hours before they helped me clean up and we went to bed in our separate rooms.

Chapter 25

The next time I went to see Pop I gave my family tickets to see the concert, saying if they wanted to come, they could but if they didn’t want to come it was ok. I still hadn’t seen Justin, Mum said he’d been busy with work. He was an Air Force Pilot. He and Mum didn’t really get along, he lived with Dad when they separated, right up until the day Dad disowned him for getting his girlfriend pregnant at 17. They were now married and had a gorgeous 4 year old daughter named Lilly with another due at the end of March. When I left the hospital I rang Justins mobile and waited.

“Hey this is Justin, I’m kinda busy right about now, so leave a message and I’ll try to get back to you ASAP” Said his voice mail message.

“Hey Justin, It’s Jaime, haven’t seen you for a while, was hoping we could catch up soon. Mum has a concert ticket for you for Friday night if you’re not busy” I said and hung up. Instead of going abck to the hotel I drove around for ages, not sure of how I felt or anything, At midday I thought I’d better go to the rehearsal/ meeting Kev had planned for us. I had my stuff in the car with me. I drove to the hall Kev had hired for us and grabbed my stuff, going in. For 3 hours we ran through the songs we were performing and wrote lyrics down on paper so he could give it all to the techies who were gonna have the words up on the screen behind us. As it got closer to the show date I got increasingly worried that we weren’t gonna have many people in the SCG and it would sound really shit and make us look bad. I noticed Jenn and Taz were feeling the same, the way Jenn kept asking Kev if was sure the tickets were selling well and the way Taz kept saying that she had a bad feeling. Before the meeting Kev wanted us to have I slipped away and rang Billie Joe.

“Hey babe, I was just about to call you” He said cheerfully

“Cool” I said, distractedly

“What’s wrong?” He asked

“I’m just thinking about stuff” I said with a sigh

“You wanna talk about it?” He asked

“Do you remember you asked me if I wanted to have the wedding while my pop was alive to see it?” I asked

“Yeah” He answered

“Well, when I answered you I didn’t know how bad it was. Billie they say he’s only got a maximum of 2 months left but he could go at any time” I said, starting to cry softly

“Oh baby, I’m sorry” He said

“Can you come over here sooner?” I asked him

“I can try, you’ll have to organise everything really quick. It won’t be the wedding you want” He said

“I’ve spoken to mum, she said that next week they were transporting him back to tamworth and letting him go home, with a nurse and all that” I said

“Do you think we can do it?” He asked

“No, but I have to try Billie” I said

“I know. I’ll make some calls and see if I can get an earlier flight. Is there anyone you want to come with me?” He asked

“Nick and Brian, Leigh, Baylee, Jesse, Dave and Kris, I want them at my wedding” I said

“I’ll see what I can do” He said

“I gotta go, Kev’s calling me for the meeting” I said

“Ok, let me know if you need anything” He said.

“I will” I answered. I said I love you and after he’d replied I hung up and composed myself slightly before going back out into the hall. I sat on the floor with everyone else and picked up my notebook, just incase. Kev told the girls about Billie Joe wanting Adeline Records to take of our contract and they were really excited, but worried when Kev said he wouldn’t be the manager.

“Tré will” I said

“Be our manager?” Taz asked

“Yeah apparently” I shrugged

“Jawesome” She grinned.

“So should I call Billie Joe and ask him to start the negotiations?” Kev asked

“Can it wait? We’re both gonna be flat out getting a wedding organised in a week” I said, hoping I didn’t sound up myself

“Sure, it can wait. I think I know what’s going on, so if you need anything let me know” He said

“Thanks” I said

“Same with us hun” Jenn said touching my arm gently. Taz nodded in agreement

“I’d like you both to be Bridesmaids” I said

“Hell yeah” Taz grinned

“And Drake the Page boy” I said, looking at both Kev and Jenn. They both nodded.

“This is gonna be so hard” I groaned

“It’s all good, we’ll help” Kev said

“We’ll even have a Hen’s night for you” Jenn grinned at Taz, who grinned back

“Tomorrow we’ll have the rehearsle later and you guys can go and look at dresses and stuff ok?” Kev said

“Will you do me a favour and organise a Christening here in Sydney somewhere?” I asked him

“Yeah, for BJ?” He asked

“Yeah” I nodded. He wrote something down and looked at me again.

“What else?” He asked

“I need someone to book the church, I need to get a marriage license, fuck this” I said, getting upset

“We’ll get it done” Jenn said firmly.

“But the concert is right smack bang in the middle of it all” I said, tears coming to my eyes

“Jaime, we can do this” Taz said. I nodded, still unsure.

“There’s no time for invitations so we’re gonna have to call people” Jenn said

“We can do that today. We can book airline tickets and stuff too” Taz said writing it down in her notebook

“Where do you want the reception?” Kev asked

“Diggers” I said, Taz grinned at me.

“Wests Diggers” She corrected. I laughed. Kev scribbled it down.

“What church?” He asked

“St Nicholas” I answered. He nodded and wrote that down.

“Flowers?” Jenn asked

“Red and white roses” I said instantly. She nodded.

“Come on, you and I will go back to the hotel and start calling people” Taz said

“We’ll come too and start getting this organised” Kev said. At the hotel We organised with the hotel manager to have access to international calling from the hotel phones and we went upstairs. In my room I wrote a rough list of all the people I wanted to invite and than called Billie Joe and Asked him. He rattled off everyone and said that himself, his family, Tré, Mike, Nick and Brian and his family were on tomorrow mornings flight to Sydney. They would be arriving during the rehearsle. Kev said he would pay for someone to pick them up and get them to the hotel and everything. I gave Taz the list of my people and kept Billie Joe’s list for myself. I was nervous and worried but I knew it had to be done.

“Hello?” Said a Male voice s I dialled the first number on the list

“Hello Mitchell?” I asked

“Yes, who’s this?” He asked

“My name is Jaime Cobain. I’m calling on behalf of Billie Joe” I said

“Oh, what can I do for you?” He asked. I told him about the wedding and he said he’d try and get a flight asap. It was the same with most people, they all said they’d try and get a flight. I gave them my mobile number and told them to leave me a message on my voicemail so it didn’t cost them shitloads to talk for ages. ¾ of the people on Billie Joe’s list were going to try and come, the other ¼ just flat out refused. The next day Taz, Jenn and I went dress shopping. First for bridesmaids dresses, which I wanted to be red. While we were looking I reang up Julia and asked her to be my maid of honour, told her where we were. Within 20 minutes she arrived. They tried on the dresses and we bought them, next we went and looked at shoes for them. After that we went dress shopping for me. I found a really pretty skirt and top combination that was off white. The skirt was slightly puffy and went right down to the floor. The top was a beaded corset over a white, silky singlet type thing. The veil was long and fastened to my hair with a silver tiara with diamonds. It cost nearly $10,000 dollars and I knew I couldn’t afford it. I reluctantly took it off and tried on a plainer dress that didn’t suit me. I didn’t buy either. Jenn, Taz and Jules gave each other a look, but I ignored it, I wasn’t really in the mood for anything at all right at that moment. Julia asked if she could come and watch us rehearse. I said she could and we went straight there.

“Did you get a dress?” Kev asked

“No, they’re all fucked and stupid and I’m just gonna wear my jeans and a t-shirt” I said, trying not too look upset.

“We’ll work something out” He said giving me a quick hug.

“Oh, yeah Kev this is my sister Julia, jules this is Kev, our manager” I said. They shook hands and said hello. I stepped up onto the stage and picked up my guitar, the light catching the silver engagement ring on my finger and making it shine in my eye for a split second. I looked at it and sighed. About halfway through the rehearsle Justin burst through the back doors quickly followed by Billie Joe, Tré and Mike and everyone else. I basically threw my guitar at Jenn, nearly broke my neck jumping off the stage and bolted towards Billie Joe. When I reached him I threw myself in his arms and started crying.

“What’s wrong?” He asked

“It’s all fucked, I hate it, everything” I sobbed. He held me tight and rubbed my back.

“What happened?” He asked me gently

“I can’t afford the fucking dress, I can’t organise everything it’s fucked and I hate it” I said, now sobbing uncontrollably. I realised we were being watched but couldn’t calm myself down

“Shh, how much was the dress?” He asked me

“It was $9500” I said

“Ok, I’ll give you the money and you can have it ok?” He asked

“What?” I asked, pulling away

“I’ll pay for your dress” He said

“But…” I trailed off

“You should know by now that I will do anything at all for you” He said. I just hugged him again.

“Thank you so much” I said

“It’s ok, don’t worry about it. Now get your butt back up on that stage and show me how to rock” He said. I chuckled, wiped my eyes on the back of my hand and went back to the stage. Everyone stayed until we’d finished and than Billie Joe introduced me to his family, who all seemed pretty nice. Back at the hotel we did some more organising for the wedding and than Billie Joe, Kev and Tré called a meeting with Dysfunct. We sat in Kev’s room, each with a beer and looked around.

“I’ve started the negotiations with Jive. I’ll tell you the conditions and you can make the final decision” Billie Joe said. He had a note book on his lap with stuff written in it.

“Right now, Jive are taking 49% of your earnings, which isn’t unusual, they’re paying you $10,500 each, Jenn and Tara, for each album made and Jaime you are receiving $11,000 as you are the supplier of most if not all songs and you’ve done a lot more publicity than the others, which is also fair, considering you’ve taken the brunt of most of it. For singles you each receive $4000” He said, looking around at each of us

“I didn’t realise I was getting paid more” I said looking at Taz and Jenn who were grinning at me, they knew I’d say something

“It was all outlined in the contract” Kev said to me

“Was it? I don’t remember” I said sheepishly

“If you agree to the terms and conditions of Adeline Records we will get a 35% cut of all earnings and you will be receiving the following. Taz and Jenn, $20.000 for albums and $7000 for singles. Jaime you will receive $25,000 for albums and $7000 for singles” He said

“Why so much more?” I asked

“Is it because she’s rooting you?” Taz asked playfully. Billie Joe laughed and shook his head

“No, it’s not because she’s rooting me. Jai you’ll find out why you get more in a second” He said and turned the page in his notebook.

“For tours and concerts you have a budget of $1mil with an emergency budget of $500,000 to cover cancelled shows, illnesses in the group and new equipment. That’s all Green Day have with Reprise and it works out well. Seeing as Jaime is in more demand for publicity she receives the extra $5000. But you will all be paid the same if all 3 of you appear together or any of you do solo publicity” He explained. I nodded and looked over at Jenn and than at Taz who was cosying up to Tré.

“Does that sound fair to you girls?” Billie Joe asked Jenn and Taz

“Yeah it sounds good” Jenn nodded

“Taz?” Billie Joe asked

“Fine by me” She grinned

“Jaime?” He asked

“I guess so” I said, shrugging and looking down

“Kev is there anything you want to say?” He asked

“As Dysfuncts currant manager I have some concerns with the way Tré may manage the band” He said

“I can assure you right now just because I may seem like a complete dickhead, when it comes to something as important as this I know where my head is and I know how to be firm when I need to be. But I also know how to give a little leeway here and there” He said. Kev nodded and smiled.

“What about promotional crap?” I asked

“There’s a $1mil budget for promotional crap too. You can decide how to spend it when it comes down to it” Billie Joe said

“And are you going to have some input?” Kev asked

“As the owner and manager of Adeline, yes I will have some input, but ultimately it’s Tré and the girls” He said

“What about song writing?” Jenn asked

“Well that’s a different story, if you add my name to any songs that we may write together I will get some of the royalties, but it’s your choice whether or not you put my name down” He said

“Of course we’ll put your bloody name down” Taz said, reaching over and smacking his arm. He laughed.

“Well in that case as a writer I will get a 5% cut in the royalties of an album, single and merchandising on top of the 10% that I already receive from owning/managing the company/ Adrienne will get 10% and the other 10% goes into building the label up” He explained. I thought the Percentages were pretty reasonable but decided to take Jenn and Taz aside and ask them in private what they thought.

“Can we have maybe 15 minutes to talk about it?” I asked

“I was just going to suggest that. 15 minutes and we’ll be back” Billie Joe said standing up. He, Tré and Kev left and I looked at my 2 friends.

“First of all what do YOU think?” Jenn asked

“I think it’s a really good offer and that’s not just because I’m marrying the owner” I grinned

“I think it’s pretty fair, what they’re offering us/taking from us” Taz said

“Same, I think we should do it” Jenn said

“Yeah?” I asked

“Yeah” They agreed

“It won’t be as easy to get out of this contract if we take it” I said

“Who says we’re gonna want out of the contract?” Taz asked

“Ok, we’ll do it” I said and went over to the door. I let them all back in and we sat down.

“So what do you think?” Billie Joe asked us

“We think it’s a great offer, but before we say yay or nay I’d like to ask Tré a few questions” I said

“Go ahead” Tré said

“What exactly are you going to provide for us that Kev can’t?” I asked

“That’s actually a really good question. With Kev as your manager you were almost forced to be slightly pop orientated. I do reliase that Kev has provided you all with a lot of ultimate decision making etc, but at the same time, trivial things such as decibel levels and the amount of swearing in a song are obsessed over. No offence Kev. With me as your manager, not only will you have decision making rights there will be no limitation to the amount of swearing, no decibel limitations at concerts and ultimately I believe I will provide a certain punk influence on you all” He said

“Hey, that was a really good answer” Jenn said

“You think? I just made it up than” He said

“It was really good” I agreed. Taz just grinned. Kev was laughing.

“How much do you get?” Was my next question

“I get 10%” He nodded

“Of everything?” I asked. He nodded.

“What happens when Green Day need to work?” I then asked

“You can do whatever you want as long as it involves writing, practising and publicity” Tré said

“Hmm, ok” I answered

“Anymore questions?” Billie Joe asked

“One more, will you help us trash hotel rooms, Tré?” I asked

“Fuck yeah baby!” He exclaimed. We all cracked up laughing. We got kicked out of the room and Billie Joe made some phone calls while Taz, Jenn and I did some more for the wedding. The very next day we all got up early and went to a church where Billie Joe was being Christened. When that was over Jenn, Taz, Jules and I went to get the wedding dress. Everything had almost been organised when Taz and Jenn both told Jules that I wasn’t having a Hen’s night or anything. Billie Joe and I were in the hotel room having a little bed picnic with champagne, strawberries, chocolate, ice cream, custard and a kids movie playing on the TV. All of a sudden the door was banged open and Taz, Julia and Jenn were in my room and grinning like crazy people.

“What?” I asked, looking at them with a curious stare

“We are going out little girl” Jules grinned at me, holding up a veil

“No, fucking way” I said shaking my head

“Oh yes” Taz was nodding, she held up a gaudy wedding dress, no doubt from a Vinnies store

“Billie, help” I said

“Sorry babe” He said getting off the bed and going towards the door.

“I’ve got my own party to go to” He grinned

“You prick” I said laughing. He left and I was attacked by my friends and my sister. When they were finished the wedding dress was torn, I was wearing black boots, my eye makeup was a lot darker and thicker than I would usually have it and I was wearing bright, bright, bright red lipstick. My hair was made to look like it was dredlocked, although it wasn’t and the veil was attached. Next they went to work on themselves and when they were finished we all looked like the bridal party from hell. We took photos and drank the rest of the champagne Billie Joe and I had and ate the rest of the food before going out into the hall. The guys were all crowded around the elevator doors.

“What up?” I yelled

“Where you girls goin?” Billie Joe asked, eyeing me carefully and grinned

“Out” I said and shrugged

“Hopefully not the same place as you boys” Julia said with a big of a grin. She was looking at Mike and he was looking back. Jennisen grinned at me and we pushed the 2 of them closer together

“Did you get him a stripper?” I asked Tré

“Of course” He answered

“Did you get me one?” I asked Taz

“No, we didn’t think you’d want one” Taz said

“Oh fuck off, how come he gets a stripper?” I whined

“Ok we’ll get a stripper for you, promise” Jenn said. I grinned.

“Let’s hit the road” Billie Joe said. We all piled into the elevator and Billie Joe was behind me.

“You know, you look really hott like that” He said in my ear

“Mmm, I’m not meant too” I replied

“I know, but you’re makin me horny” He whispered

“Later, promise” I grinned. He seemed satisfied. When we exited the hotel we split up, us girls going the opposite way to the boys. We went to Bar Ace first and it was actually pretty dead so we only had one drink there and than went to Scruffy Murphy’s. We stayed there for about 2 hours and danced a lot, drinking between songs. Jenn, Taz and Julia got the lead guitarist of the band that was playing to congratulate me and he shouted the 4 of us a round of whatever we wanted. We got shots and rum. Jules and Taz dragged me downstairs to the techno area of the club which only had 6 people including us, the bar dude and one other. Jenn came down stairs followed by what appeared to be half the female population of Australia and the occasional male.

“Ladies may I introduce to you Mr Bundy Bear, here tonight to strip for Jaime who is getting married in a few short days” Jenn said and the Bundy Bear came down stairs and started dancing to Muses version of Feeling Good. I was shifted into the middle of the dance floor on a chair. The bear started dancing around me and I was laughing so hard I was crying. When the bear removed it’s head to reveal a fedora hat and a lowered head I started getting excited. With the help of myself and a couple of randoms the bear suit was removed. The person kept his head down, but I didn’t mind because I was too busy admiring his clothes, the fedora hat, a black shirt and white cadet tie, black skinny leg jeans with a studded belt and a chain from front to back and black converse shoes. He looked familiar but the alcohol wasn’t helping me figure out where I knew him from. He started slowly untying the tie and threw it behind him. Next he started unbuttoning his shirt. He turned his back to me as he slid it off his shoulders. I caught sight of a tattoo and cracked up laughing again.

“Frank Edwin Wright III what the hell do you think you’re doing?” I asked. He turned around and lifted his head, grinning.

“Sit down” He said. I sat back down and watched him strip as he danced. I saw Taz watching him closely and laughed some more. When tre had stripped down to his g-string he pulled me up and started dancing with me.

“They couldn’t get you a stripper on such short notice so they called me” He said. I laughed and hugged him.

“Thanks” I said. He stayed for a drink and than dressed and left. We decided to move on and had a few tag alongs. Taz hailed a maxi taxi and I looked at her confused.

“Is that it?” I asked

“Hell no, put this on” She said handing my a blind fold. I raised my eyebrows at her and put it on. They helped me in the taxi and we drove for a while. When we stopped I was hurried into a loud club and when the blind fold was taken off I found myself standing in the Retro Bar at the Bristol Arms Hotel. I screamed and hugged my 2 friends and my sister before we started drinking and dancing again. At6am The Retro closed and we decided now would be a good time to go to bed so we caught a taxi back to the hotel and went to our rooms. Billie Joe wasn’t inbed and I was too lazy to check the other parts of the room. I crashed in the dress and boots and veil and everything. When I woke up there was a loud pounding in my head. It didn’t take me long to realise that it was actually someone at the door. I slowly got up and went over to the door. It was Kev. He laughed when he saw me.

“Looks like you’re doin the concert hung over” He said

“What?” I asked

“Jai, your concert is tonight” He said

“Oh fuck” I said. He laughed again.

“Just start drinking again, you’ll be ok. You might wanna go freshen up a little though” He said.

“Ok” I said

“Downstairs in halfa” He said. I nodded and closed the door. I stripped the dress and everything off and skolled a beer before going to the bathroom, spewing and than having a shower. I got all the makeup off and got out. I got dressed in my punk getup and grabbed a beer out of the fridge, drinking it as I walked down the stairs to the foyer. I found everyone in the bar area, including Billie Joe who was off his face. I told him he should got o bed for a while and he and his brother stumbled upstairs.

Chapter 26

We drank for 2 hours before we left for the SCG in Moore Park where our concert was to be held. We didn’t pass many people and I became extremely nervous, so I skolled 2 more beers. Backstage Kev wouldn’t let us go and check out the crowd, but he did and everytime he came back he shook his head and looked upset. At 7 our support band, a local group called TrashT, went on and we started getting ready. At 7:45 TrashT came off and wished us luck. We Had a quick beer with them and at 8 we hurried on stage in the fading light. The plan was to do Forever Rebel first and we started playing in the dark. I couldn’t see anything because of the lights shining in my eyes although the stage was dark. When I started singing the fireworks erupted and the audience were momentarily lit up. I almost died. In the few seconds that I could actually see I didn’t see any empty chairs in the grandstands or any part of the actual oval that wasn’t crowded with people. After Forever Rebel the lights on the stage came up and the 3 of us looked out at the crowded stadium.

“Fuck me” I said into my mic and most people screamed in response

“This is quite an impressive turn out” Taz said

“Yeah a far cry from our arena shows” Jenn agreed. I was still pretty much speechless.

“Jai, you’re supposed to talk” Jenn said taking her Mic off the stand and coming over, nudging me

“Hey gimme a break. I’m overwhelmed” I said pushing her playfully

“Say it” Taz said. I laughed.

“Welcome to the ‘Gimme 2’ album release and the beginning of our world tour 2006” I yelled into the mic and the whole stadium shook with cheering. I scanned the front of the moshpit and spotted Billie Joe, Mike and Tré wearing Dysfunct tour shirts that said ‘It’s OK, I’m with the band’ on the front and the tour dates and our signatures on the back.

“There are a few people in the audience that we’d like to say hello to before we keep going” Jenn said

“Billie” I said

“Mikey” Jenn said

“Frankie” Taz said last

“My family, hey everyone” I said

“My son, Love You baby” Jenn said

“Umm… myself! Hey Taz, what up? nothing much, jus chillin up here on stage” She said. I started laughing and shook my head. We went into the first song from Gimme 2 which was Part Time Boyfriend and I turned to see if the words were on the massive screen in the middle. They were. I saw people trying to sing along and grinned. This was the best feeling in the world, despite the fact that I was drunk. An hour into the show we stopped long enough to get a beer each. I knew what song was next and I was really excited about it but at the same time, nervous about the reactions I’d get from the crowd.

“This next song is actually a Green Day one, but it’s a fuckin hott song and we love playing it and according to the members of Green Day, we don’t sound half bad” I grinned and we started playing it. Half way through I made the singal for Taz and Jenn to loop and I took my mic from the stand and went over to Jenn.

“I’d like to introduce my friends to you, one by one. This here is Jennisen, kick ass bassist, fucking hott and extremely good in bed” I said. Jenn laughed and played her little show off rhythm. When she was done she went abck to looping and everyone was going off. She beamed proudly. I went over to Taz and stood just infront of the drums.

“This is Taz, fucking jawesome drummer, sex on legs people!” I said and she went off with her solo. I saw Tré doing the rock symbol and grinned. At one point she was standing up and banging away. She broke a drum stick and grabbed another from beside her, never once missing a beat. When she was done she stood up on her stool and held her arms in the air. Everyone went off. I went back down to my mic stand and put the mic back before positioning my fingers on the frets of the guitar neck.

“And I am Jaime Cobain, best goddamn guitarist since Billie Joe Armstrong himself” I said

“And the hottest chick to walk this planet” Taz and Jenn added. I flipped them off and ripped into my guitar solo which must’ve shocked a lot of people or didn’t impress a lot of people because it went kind of silent. Because we were all hooked up to wireless amps and stuff I could walk around with no leads trailing behind me. As practiced both Jenn and Taz had stopped playing and it was only me. I decided in that instant to do something I’d never done before. I started running towards an amp, still playing my solo, put one foot onto the amp and propelled myself backwards, doing a perfect back flip and landing on my feet just as I finished my solo. The cheering was absolutely fucking deafening and I grinned out into the audience holding my hands up. I turned around and saw Taz and Jenn clapping too, stunned looks on their faces. When I glanced at Billie Joe I saw him going off like a frog in a sock. I grinned and waited until Taz counted us back in and I did the last verse before ending the song. I couldn’t wipe the grin off my face and I was on such a huge adrenaline rush. The next song we were gonna do was Taz;s song about a friend she had in Australia, she was gonna sing and play the guitar for this one and I was gonna play the drums.

“If you’ll excuse me for just a little while, Taz and I are gonna swap instruments for this song” I said. Taz cam jogging down to me and I handed her my pick and took my guitar off, passing it to her. She gave me her drumstick and I grinned into the crowd before taking the steps two at a time to get up to her drum kit. Taz was strumming the chords to Pink Panther.

“Alright this is the first time I’ve actually had to perform this song, so I’m sorry if I fuck it up” She said as I did a drum roll. She turned around and nodded to me. I took a breath and counted us in, beginning the slightly complicated drum beat. Taz and Jenn played identical rhythms and Taz stepped back from the mic a little. The intro went for a few seconds. When she started singing I changed the drum beat to an easier one, as practised and did back up vocals for her. The song was well rewarded and when I gave her back the drum sticks I gave her a big hug. She gave me back my guitar and pick and went back up to her drums.

“Ladies and Gentlemen, Taz Orman!” I said into the mic and there was another round of applause. We did a few more songs from our first album and all the songs from Gimme 2 as well as a couple of covers and after another 2 hours of performing, thanked the crowd, said goodbye and went backstage. After about 10 minutes everyone started chanting ‘encore’ and we discussed which 2 songs we could on stage. We decided on King For A Day and Longview, two Green Day songs, but we’d already done most of our songs. When we went back on stage, again the cheering was deafening but we played anyway, whether or not the audience could hear us is a different story all together. When we’d finished Longveiw we said goodbye again and went backstage and started jumping around in circles, screaming.

“Looks like I’m gonna have to cancel all our other shows and reopen them at stadiums, congratulations girls” Kev grinned hugging us all and laughing.

“You bitch, you knew we’d filled it up. You made us fucking scared for nothing” I said, punching him playfully. He laughed. Billie Joe, Mike and Tré appeared and I ran, screaming towards them. I threw myself on Billie Joe and than on Mike and Tré.

“That was a fucking awesome show. Well done. Shit you looked good up on that stage” Billie Joe said and the 7 of us cracked open a beer each.

“That backflip you did… fuck” Tré said

“I can’t believe I pulled it off and still managed to play” I said, still on my adrenaline rush

“It was so good. Fuck Jai” Mike said, shaking his head

“Why are you all so surprised? I knew she could pull it off” Billie Joe said

“Oh yeah right, you were goin off as much as us” Mike said hitting him

“You looked good Jai, all of you did, it’s like you guys were meant for the stage” Tré said

“I have the sales numbers from 8pm until 11pm tonight” Kev said slapping down a few sheets of paper. I snatched them away from Mike who glared playfully and scanned them quickly. When my eyes fell on the number of albums sold in the past 3 hours I stared in shock, rubbed my eyes quickly and stared at it again.

“How many people were here tonight?” I asked Kev

“58,000 there about. We sold out but there were obviously no shows” Kev said. I nodded and let Jenn snatch the papers from me.

“What?” Taz asked, when she too stared in shock

“Tell me that those figures aren’t a mistake” I said, staring at Kev

“It’s not a mistake Jai” He said, the grin spreading across his face

“87,549 copies sold” I said. Everyone erupted into applause and cheering, before hugging each of us.

“You have to do a quick interview so are you all set?” Kev asked

“Hell yeah, let’s do it” Jenn said. The 3 of us followed him down to the media room and went in. The reporter and his 3 man crew stood up and greeted us with a smile.

“Let’s get this show on the road please” Kev said as he sat behind the reporter. For the next 10 minutes we spoke to the reporter which was live on the late night news. They played highlights from our concert apparently. After that all of us were on too much of a high to go back to the hotel to sleep, so we went and got changed and went out, even Kev. We didn’t get back to the hotel until an hour before we were meant to go to the superdome for our second concert. We went on stage and performed drunk. We had the words on the screen behind us again and everyone went off just as much as last nights show. During Hitchin’ A Ride when we were doing our solo’s I back flipped again and nailed it perfectly. This time for our encore we did We Are The Champions and King For A Day. Taz and I loved that song and Jenn thought it was funny that we loved it so much. I’m pretty sure it was gonna become a permanent fixture on our set list. After that concert we went back to the hotel and Kev called a meeting. We were all piled in his room with beer when he grinned at us.

“I’ve been doing a lot of thinking these past 2 nights, while I was watching you 3 up on stage” He began

“Uh huh” Jenn said

“It’s nothing bad, I swear” He said

“Well spit it out” I insisted, settling down inbetween Tré and Billie Joe

“Hey, this is bringing back some good memories” I said. Both Billie Joe and Tré smiled. Billie Joe put his hand over my mouth. I let him. Kev continued.

“I can see that you in particular Jai wanna do a shit load more moving around but it’s limited to your solo’s” He said. I nodded. Billie Joe still had his hand over my mouth

“How about we introduce another few backing members for the group? Ultimately it’ll be you 3, but with a few others in there as well. Kinda like Green Day” He said

“Uhh jest” I said, Billie Joe’s hand muffling my speech. He took his hand away.

“What?” Kev asked

“I guess” I said again. They all laughed.

“Can I say something?” Tré asked

“Sure go ahead” Kev said

“That’s a really good idea with the extra members Kev, but I think it’d be a lot better if we waited until this tour was over and the new cd was done etc to think about bringing in more band members. I think it’d be too confusing for a lot of people” He said

“That’s a really good point” Kev said. We stayed in there for about 45 minutes, talking before Kev let us go to bed.

2 Days Later

“I can’t believe it’s tomorrow” I said to my mum as her, Julia, Jenn, Taz and I sat in the living room of our house in Tamworth. Billie Joe and everyone else were all staying at my cousins place over the other side of town.

“Are you excited?” Jenn asked

“Yeah” I grinned

“Do you think it’ll change anything?” Jules asked

“What do you mean?” I asked

“Well, sex with him must be amazing, do you think that will change?” She asked

“No way!” I exclaimed. Everyone laughed.

“Are you gonna try for a baby?” Mum asked carefully

“I don’t know. Maybe. I think I’d be too worried about something happening” I said

“That’s fair enough. What about adoption?” She asked

“We haven’t really spoken about that. I mean tomorrow after the ceremony I’m gonna have an instant family anyway” I said

“True” She nodded. There was a knock on the door and the doorbell rang contantly. I stood up and grinned at everyone before going out to the door. I opened it and saw Tré.

“What are you doing here?” I asked him curiously

“Surprise” Jakob and Joseph yelled out as the jumped from behind Tré. I started laughing and pushed open the door, hugging them both tightly.

“How are you both?” I asked

“Good” They chorused.

“They wantd to come see you and wouldn’t take no as an answer. I said I’d bring them over. Taxi’s are expensive here” He said

“I know” I said

“Who else is here?” Joey asked me

“Well you’d better come see” I said. They followed me back into the living room where mum had put out some lollies. She’d obviously heard the boys.

“Jenn!” Jakob yelled and ran full belt towards Jenn who laughed and let him tackle her. Joseph stayed just behind me and to the right. He was shy.

“Everyone, these are Billie Joe’s kids, Joseph and Jakob, boys this is my Sister Julia and My mum. You guys can call her mum too cos she’s everyone mum” I said

“Jaime, we’re you kids now too aren’t we?” Jack asked me

“Well kinda, not until tomorrow though” I said. He shrugged. Tré cleared his throat

“Oh and that’s just Tré” I said

“Just Tré? What do you mean ‘just Tré’ woman you’re mean” Tré said

“Sorry. Mum, Jules, this is Tré he’s a very good friend of mine. Tré, that’s Mum and Julia” I said

“Nice to meet you Tré” Mum said. Tré took her offered hand and kissed it

“Show off” I said while at the same time, faking a sneeze. He nudged me.

“So who’s giving you away tomorrow?” Tré asked

“No one” I said with a shrug

“Why not? I thought you would’ve gotten one of your uncles to do it” He said

“I’m not really close enough too my uncles” I said

“I could do it” He said

“But you’re already a groomsmen” I said

“I’m sure BJ wouldn’t care if you told him why” He said

“I guess. Come outside and have a smoke with me” I said. He smiled. The boys wanted to come out too, so we all went out. Mum, Jules and I all sparked up.

“There’s nothing to say that you couldn’t be a groomsmen as well as give Jaime away” Mum said to him

“Well it’s up to Jai” He said, smiling at me

“Would you really do it?” I asked

“Hell yeah!” He grinned. I grinned back and gave him a hug. They stayed for another half hour and than I drove them back to my cousins place and waited until they were inside before going back home. At 9 we all went to bed, since we had to be up fairly early. The next day we all got up and mum cooked me a big breakfast but I was too nervous to eat it all. At 10:30 the hair dresser came and did my hair. She re dyed it too with the colours I had for New Years Eve. Next the beautician came and did my nails and than finally Jenn and Taz started doing my make up. It took us far too long to get everything done and as a result I was panicking because I thought I was going to be late. Mum gave me a shot of rum to calm me down and than helped me into my dress. Although I wanted the actual ceremony to be fairly traditional, Taz, Jenn and I all couldn’t help but punk it up a little bit and therefore our eye makeup was dark and they forced Jules to wear fishnets with her dress too. I was wearing white ones underneath the white knee high lace up boots and I was planning on wearing a black garter underneath the dress I was gonna wear to the reception. Tré showed up on the doorstep and when he looked me over he smiled.

“You look beautiful” He whispered. I smiled and gave him a quick hug.

“You look mighty fine too, in your tails” I said. Billie Joe and I decided that he and the others would wear Tails. His hair was in a Mohawk, his eyeliner was thicker than mine and he was wearing a back and white diagonally striped tie as well as converse shoes.

“Come on, let’s do this” Taz said handing me my bouquet of deep red and purple roses. We went out to the cars, which were all convertibles, and started on our way to the church. Tré gave my hand a squeeze and grinned. I grinned back When we pulled up at the Church I saw the photographer waiting out the front. My friends and sister quickly hugged me before starting down the aisle of the church. I saw Billie Joe, his Brother and Mike turn around and watch. I saw Billie Joe jittering slightly. He was nervous too. The music started as Jenn walked down the aisle first with Jakob holding her hand and walking beside her. Jakob was the page boy and Joseph was on of the Groomsmen. Drake was a little unsteady on his feet and Jenn didn’t really want him to fall over half way down the aisle. Next Taz walked down with my little cousin Grace, who was the flower girl. After Taz Julia started down the aisle. Tré and I waited for a second or too before following her. I couldn’t wipe the grin off my face and I couldn’t stop my hands from shaking. Billie Joe’s eyes lit up when he finally got a decent view of me and I saw that he too was wearing eyeliner and lots of it. We stopped just before the alter and the priest smiled at us.

“Who gives this bride away?” He asked

“I do, Frank Edwin Wright III” Tré said. The priest nodded and Tré lifted my veil, gave me a quick kiss on the cheek, wished me luck, lowered my veil and passed me over to Billie Joe, who was smiling. Both of us had tears in our eyes. Tré quickly took his place beside Mike. Billie Joe and I kept glancing at each other. Because it was a catholic wedding we were allowed to sit down while the prayers and everything were being said. We took communion and than it eventually came to our vows. Before they even started I had tears trickling down my face. I saw Billie Joe struggling to hold them back. We said our vows and than we blessed the rings. Billie Joe held my hand gently as he slipped the ring on my finger millimetres at a time.

“With this ring, I wed thee…” He said as he slid it on. Niether of us could look away from each others eyes. When my wedding ring was on hew lifted my hand and kissed it gently. I did the same to him and than we were married. It took almost an hour.

“Jaime, Billie, congratulations, I now pronounce you Husband and Wife. Billie you may kiss your bride” The priest said. Billie Joe carefully lifted the veil over my head and kissed me softly. Everyone stood and clapped. We signed the marriage certificate and just before we started walking back down the aisle the preist spoke again.

“Ladies and Gentleman I am honoured to present to you Mr and Mrs Billie Joe Armstrong” He said and we started walking down the aisle to more cheers. Outside the people driving past beeped and yelled out the window. I laughed. Billie Joe lifted me up and swung me around before putting me back down and kissing me quickly.

“I can’t believe it” He said

“We’re married” I grinned. My nan came over with Justin pushing pop in a wheelchair. He had tear streaks down his cheeks.

“Congratulations Jaime” He said. I bent down and kissed his cheek and hugged him quickly

“Thank you” I said. Justin wrapped his arms around me and held me tight.

“Who would’ve thought my little brat of a sister would end up a fuckin rock star and married” He said. I laughed and punched his arm playfully

“Everyone, can I please have your attention?” Tré was yelling out. He was standing up on the fence above everyone. Everyone quietened down and looked up at him.

“3 cheers for the newly weds! Hipip!” He said

“Hooray!” Everyone shouted together

“Hipip” Tré repeated

“Hooray!” Was the again shouted response

“Hipip” Tré said one last time

“Hooray!” Even yelled again, but it was louder than the others and than there was more applause.

“Where are we doing the photos?” Julia asked

“At the Vault, of course, Anzac Park, The look out…” I listed off

“The Vault, what’s that?” Billie Joe asked

“It’s a restaurant thing. We used to pretty much live there” I grinned. He laughed. Everyone started moving off and we got ready to go get the photo’s done. At The Vault Billie Joe and I sat at a table on the veranda  with a bottle of wine and had a couple of Photo’s taken and than all of us, not including our parents sat at a big table and had more photo’s done and than with our parents. At Anzac Park Billie Joe and I had a photo taken of us standing up on the bridge looking at each other. I noticed for the first time he was wearing one of his red Cadet ties and Mike was wearing a back tie over his white shirt. It was so punk of them that it cracked me up. Unbeknownst to me and Billie Joe the photographer was snapping away as I bent over, laughing and Billie Joe kept asking me what was wrong, making me laugh harder. When I’d finally calmed down enough to speak I told him about the ties. He grinned and shook his head.

“Did I tell you that you look beautiful in that dress?” He asked

“No, but thank you” I answered

“I could make love to you right here” He said in my ear

“Mmm, not in front of my mum” I answered. He grinned and pecked my lips. The photographer got us to stand in a line so we did. At the look out the photographer got Billie Joe and I to sit on the rock and cement wall so he could take a photo with Tamworth in the background. I didn’t wanna get my dress too dirty so Billie Joe pulled me into his lap and held on to me. The next photo was of us all with Billie Joe holding me in his arms. When a few more photo’s were taken we decided that would be enough and headed back down to the hotel so we could all get changed. Billie Joe pulled me into the bedroom and pushed me down on the bed, laying half on top of me and kissing me passionately.

“Wanna skip the reception and just fuck?” He asked

“No… Let’s go have some fun” I said pushing him away. He laughed and helped me out of my dress. When I was dressed I went into the bathroom and slipped on the garter over the red fishnets and pulled my dress down. I flushed the toilet and washed my hands, so it looked like I had actually gone to the bathroom and than went back out to see Billie Joe in skinny leg jeans and the ‘punk rocker’ shirt I’d given him for Christmas. I pulled on my black converse shoes and reapplied my make up before we all gathered at the bottom of the stairs leading to where our reception was being held. I had my bouquet still and Taz grinned at me. Billie Joe and I chose my cousin, David and we gave him all the information on Billie Joe he would most likely need. I heard David’s voice welcoming everyone to the reception and thanking them for everything and than he introduced Jakob and Grace and I watched them walk up the stairs, following Grace’s Mum, Beck up the stairs. Next was Taz and Tré than Jenn and Mike, than Julia and Allen and lastly us. We were half way up the stairs when David actually introduced us.

“I’m so very honoured to introduce you all to Mr Billie Joe Armstrong and His Bride Mrs Jaime Cobain-Armstrong” He said and we reached the top of the stairs to find all our guests standing up and applauding. Most of the people were dressed as punks and I grinned. We went and sat at the table in front of everyone and David winked at me.

“Now not many of you know exactly how Jaime and Billie got together, but during the night you will find out that and many other interesting things about the newly weds. But to start with I’d like to tell each of you a little about their pasts and when they were younger” He said as various waiters and waitresses ran around offering bottles of champagne and wines and stuff. I opted for a beer, same as Billie Joe.

“In February 1972, in Berkley, California, Ollie Armstrong gave birth to a baby boy, who unbeknownst to anyone was going to grow up and steal the hearts of thousands of girls, change the face of music forever and cause more riots in the history of this planet than any prison guard. Ollie and Andy Armstrong named their youngest son Billie Joe” David said. His mum smiled warmly at us and Billie Joe blew her a kiss.

“When Billie Joe was 14 years old and starting his first band, on the opposite side of the world in Tamworth, NSW, Australia, in March 84 Jaime Ann Imogen Marie Emily Cobain was being born. Jai your mum wanted me to let everyone know that she was in labour with you for a good 19 hours” David said. Everyone laughed, including myself. Mum grinned at me.

“While Billie Joe was off making it big with his band, Jaime was slogging it out at school, until eventually when she was 17 she packed up and flew to America where she lived with Jennisen and started their band. 6 Months later Taz moved to America and they started practicing” David said looking around at the people in the function room which was decorated in purples and blacks.

“Before I continue with the story of their lives, I’ve been asked to announce that Dinner will be ready in Half an Hour. In that half hour I’d like to invite Tré to the Microphone for the first toast of the evening” He said. Tré stood up and went over to David.

“If you could please all stand and raise your glasses” Tré said. Billie Joe and I stayed sitting.

“Can you make a toast without sexual inuenndo’s? No, well here’s to ass fucking” He said. The entire room cracked up laughing, myself and Billie Joe included.

“No I’m sorry. Here’s to A wedding that went without a hitch” He said. Everyone said the same

“Mike” David said. Mike stood and went over, carrying his beer

“May You have all the happiness in the world” He said and lifted his glass

“Allen would now like to make a speech” David said. Billie Joe’s brother stood and went over, grinning in our direction.

“Although I’ve known Jaime for barely a day I know that these 2 are more in love than any other person is this room. On the rare occasion when I did actually speak to my little brother, all he would talk about is ‘this new girl’ that he was friends with. He wouldn’t tell me exactly who she was, but unlike some people I know how to read and I did some research and it turns out my baby bro was shakin up with a pretty decent girl” He said. I started laughing, Billie Joe was shaking his head, embarrassed. I held on to his hand and kept laughing.

“I’ve not heard exactly how or when BJ and Jaime got together but I’m guessing it had something to do with a concert” He said. Billie Joe and I both laughed.

“Jaime, you certainly are a very lucky lady to be married to my brother, but Billie don’t think that you’re not lucky to be married to Jaime, because you are. From what I’ve heard about you Jaime you’re one of the best people in the world as a friend and a lover. Congratulations to the Newly Weds, Billie Joe and Jaime” He said. Everyone applauded and as he came back, I stood up and gave him a hug.

“Thank you” I said

“No, thank you, for making him happy again” He whispered and went back to his seat. I sat back down and gave Billie Joe a kiss. We ate dinner and I slipped outside with Mum and Jules for a smoke.

“So this is where my beautiful bride has gotten too” Came Billie Joe’s voice as he wrapped his arms around me from behind

“Mmm, I needed a smoke” I answered

“Draw?” He asked. I held the smoke up to his lips and he drew back, blowing the smoke out in a thin line away from my face. He began kissing my neck gently and I grinned.

“Come on, let’s go back inside” I said

“Yeah it’s nearly time for my speech” Julia grinned

“Oh god, here comes trouble” I said. She laughed. We put our smokes out and went back inside, sitting back out our table.

“Taz would like to make a toast now” David said. Taz stood up and grinned at me before going over to the mic.

“To the wedding night and condoms!” She said. Billie Joe and I cracked up laughing again. Tré cheered the loudest. It was funny.

“Jenn” David said laughing. Jenn went over and grinned.

“How am I supposed to top that?” She asked shaking her head

“Alright, Jai, Billie I hope you have the time of your lives” She said and raised her glass. I smiled at her.

“Julia, speech” David said Jules went over and grinned at him and than at us.

“When I first found out about Jaime and Billie I was a bit sceptical, for obvious reasons, age gap, previous children etc. When I see them together, like right now I know that none of that bothers either of them. Last night I had the honour of seeing Jaime with her step sons, she may be young but Jaime is fantastic with them. They nearly call her mum. I’m sorry Adrienne” She said, waving at Adrienne who was sitting with the rest of my family. Adrienne waved her off and lifted her glass in the direction of Billie Joe and I. We waved.

“Both of them have been through a lot in their lifetimes but according to some very reliable sources when they found each other there was no stopping them. In fact there’s a rumour goin around the bridemaids and groomsmen that there was a threesome” She said

“Oh fuck” I said hiding my face

“We can all tell that by the look on her face, it’s true” She said. I gave her the finger.

“Ok, I’m sorry. To tell everyone the honest to god truth at first I didn’t think this would work out. This is last year. But when I finally saw them together in person, not on TV or in a magazine I was overwhelmed with the amount of love radiating from them both. Billie, Jaime enjoy your life as a married couple and look after each other” She said. I wiped a tear away and hugged her quickly before she sat down.

“Thanks, Jules for that speech” David said. Mum made a speech too, but all she said was that we made a good couple, told us to be good and have a good life together. She also said that Kurt Would’ve been proud of me.

Chapter 27

We had a bit of a break and we got more drinks and went outside for a smoke.

“Jaime, you look really pretty” Joseph said to me

“Thanks Joey, you’re lookin pretty handsome in that suit too” I grinned and gave him a hug. Adrienne came out and smiled at us as Billie Joe put his arm around me.

“Congratulations Jaime, you looked amazing in your gown and you look beautiful still in that dress” She said hugging me

“Thanks. Thanks for coming too. I really appreciate it” I said

“I wouldn’t miss it for the world” She said and than hugged Billie Joe.

“I’m glad you finally got your traditional wedding Billie” She said to him

“Thanks” He said and let her go. We went back inside and sat down. I downed my drink and got another.

“Would the Bride and Groom like to say something now?” David asked. We both shook our heads

“Well, Dessert will be served in around 15 minutes, so I’ll use this time to tell the story of how the newly weds met” He said, grinning at us again. Everyone cheered.

“In December 2004 Dysfunct were taking a break from their commitments and Jaime, Jenn and Tara came to Australia, closely followed by Nick. Tara was with her than boyfriend Jez. Jaime was bored and she heard on the radio that Green Day was touring. She tried her luck and rang up and got 3 Idiot Zone tickets. The idiot zone being the Mosh pit. Tara didn’t want to go, but her and Jez ended up going anyway, they were up in the grandstand. Jenn, Nick and Jai were having a ball in the Mosh pit, apparently and Billie Joe, who’d just separated from his ex wife, was on the prowl and his eyes landed on Jaime. To make a long story short, Jaime played up on stage with them, Billie Joe gave her backstage passes, she went backstage and this is a direct quote from Billie Joe, they went backstage and ‘fucked like Clinton and Lewinsky’” David said

“You said that?” I asked Billie Joe

“Well we did” He said. I hit him playfully and shook my head

“That’s the story of how they met, but I was talking to Jaime yesterday, while I was making this little thing up and she told me that they didn’t start out dating, they started out as fuck buddies. It took Billie Joe right up until last year to convince Jaime that he wouldn’t leave her or hurt her if they became lovers” David said and Billie Joe put his arm around me lovingly. There were a few ‘awwws’.

“Now not many people know this either, in fact, if I’m not mistaken only Tré, Jaime, Billie, Jenn, Mike and Taz know. Well guess what, I’m gonna tell everyone and you can’t stop me” He said and stuck his tongue out at us. I laughed and grinned.

“When Jaime was in hospital last year for personal reasons Billie Joe had been planning on proposing for quite a while. He showed Jaime the ring and before he could ask her, Jaime told him to ask her when she was better but the answer was yes anyway. They’d been engaged for 3 months before Billie Joe finally asked her properly at Disneyland on New Years Eve 11 Days ago. It’s my understanding that not even the press know about it yet” David said. We all nodded.

“Ok, before I continue, Dessert is now being served” he said and went to sit down.

“I have to go to the toilet” I said to Billie Joe

“Ok” He said. I bent down and kissed him, before tapping Julia, Jenn and Taz on the shoulder. They all followed me to the toilets and as soona s the door was closed I jumped around in a circle and squealed.

“Excited much?” Jenn teased

“I’m so happy, I love him so much, god” I said and slumped against the far wall

“I’ve not seen you cry yet” Taz said

“Well, everyone’s been making jokes” I said

“She cried after Julia’s speech” Jenn said

“Awww” They all cooed. I laighed and went into a stall, closing the door.

“Alright I gotta go before I piss myself” I said. When we went back out to the tables, Tré was sitting in my place. I put my tiara on his head and went over to the mic.

“Ladies and gentleman, Billie’s Brand new Bride, Mr Tré Cool” I said. Tré stood up and bowed before puckering up in Billie Joe’s face. Everyone was laughing. He gave me back my Tiara and sat back in his seat. I ate my dessert and watched as Julia went over to Mum and spoke to her about something.

“Jai, are you happy?” Billie Asked me. I turned to face him and smiled, touching his cheek.

“Of course I’m Happy” I said. He put his hand over mine and smiled.

“I am too” He said. I smiled and kissed him gently.

“Ladies and Gentleman, Billie Joe and Jaime, I’d like to welcome Keith Cobain to the microphone” David said. I saw pop take the microphone and watched him.

“Over the years, I’ve seen Jaime grow into a beautiful young lady with so much compassion that sometimes it’s abd for her. I know I promised to take this secret to the grave but you deserve to know Jaime. When you were 10 years old, you didn’t lose your cousin to a drug overdose. You lost your brother. Kurt was your brother Jaime” He said. I looked over at mum who was crying softly, tears came to my own eyes, but I forced them back and looked at Julia and than at Justin who were both as shocked as me.

“The reason we didn’t tell any of you kids is because of your father. Kurt was not his child, your mum was pregnant with him before they got married and had you 3” He said. I wipoed a couple of tears away, remembering the short time I spent with him.

“When you were 16 you had a rough time and no one blames you for anything. It was tough to handle your fathers passing and the loss of your baby, but honey you got through it and you made yourself into something. Last year when you lost another child I can understand why you did what you did, even if no one else can. Whatever happened with AJ, forget it all because you have a wonderful husband by your side and he’s gonna stay by your side until the day he dies. Let him love you as much as he possibly can Jaime” He said, getting choked up. I felt more tears streaking down my cheeks and looked down. Billie Joe tightened his grip on me and I turned my head to see him crying as well.

“I know why you decided to get married today and I thank you for it, I wish I could be here for your anniversary and the birth of your first child together, but unfortunately god is getting his way again. Congratulations sweetheart you’re a beautiful bride and you and Billie will make a great couple” He said and handed the mic back to David. I started sobbing and Billie Joe pulled me against him.

“Thanks pop, for your speech, It’s time now for Jaime and Billie Joe to say something” David said, clearing his throat. Billie Joe gave me a quick kiss and took the microphone David was passing him. I wiped my eyes on the back of my hand and looked down, my eyeliner was smudged and I got upset again.

“Hang on, we’re having a makeup crisis” He said into the mic and grinned at everyone. They chuckled. He sat back down and pulled a hanky from his pocket, gently wiping my eyes and than helping me put more eyeliner on. I did the same for him.

“Ok, first of all I’d like to thank my new wife, Jaime for actually marrying me, to tell you the truth I didn’t think she would. When we first met, both of us were happy with the whole ‘fuck buddy’ arrangement and than she showed up on my doorstep after Kev was particularly harsh to them. We wrote 25 songs in 7 days whilst looking after my 2 sons. That’s really when I first found myself falling in love with her. It took me ages to convince her that I wasn’t like her previous boyfriend, who is a fucking cunt and well we all pretty much hate him now” He said. I laughed through my sniffles. Taz reached around Jenn and Julia to give my arm a squeeze.

“I’d also like to thank everyone for showing up on such short notice, we both appreciate it greatly, now come on people I put $1000 on the bar, let’s get pissed!” He said Everyone cheered.

“One last thing, Jaime, I love you and I always will, thank you” He said. I stood up and gave him a kiss. He passed the mic to me and he got us more beer and a rum & coke each.

“Today really is the happiest day of my life and I have Billie Joe to thank for that. He is my best friend, my councillor and my husband and I will do anything for him. I admit that at first I wasn’t interested in a relationship, but how could I not fall in love with him? Although I’m meant to be this big rock star if it wasn’t for Billie I wouldn’t have had this wedding, or my wedding dress, or the love and support that he gives me” I said, looking down at him. He lifted my free hand and kissed it and I smiled down at him.

“I could go on about my husband for hours or even days on end, so before I bore you all to tears, I’ll move on.

“A big thank you to everyone for coming, like Billie said, it was very short notice and I appreciate everyone showing up. Thank to David for spilling our intimate secrets, no doubt he’ll somehow find out about some other shit during the night and tell it too. Well you know what? I’ll tell you all first. Yes Billie Joe and I did have a threesome and it was some of the best sex I’ve ever had” I said. Mum wolf whistled loudly

“Who was it with?” Yelled out Anna, Billie Joe’s sister

“Well actually, it was with Frankie” I grinned. Everyone looked around confused.

“Me you idiots!” Tré yelled out. Everyone started laughing and I shook my head and smiled.

“I’d also like to think my family, for putting up with everything and my bridesmaids, Julia, Jennisen and Tara and the groomsmen, Allen, Mike and Tré.

“The flower girl and page boy, Jakob and Grace. Adrienne, thank you for your support. You know what this feels like? A speech at the Grammy’s or something. Fuck it, ima get pissed, ima have a little dance and than I’m gonna go to the hotel room and fuck my new husband’s brains out” I said. Everyone laughed and cheered. After another qick thing from David I slipped outside with Billie Joe and had another smoke.

“They’re callin you guys for the dance” Allen said, popping his head out the door. I stubbed out my smoke and followed Billie Joe inside

“There they are. We couldn’t see you because you’re both wearing black and it’s dark outside” David said

“You’re sacked” I called out. My family laughed. Billie Joe looked at me confused.

“I’ll tell you later” I grinned

“I’d like to invite Mr and Mrs Armstrong onto the dance floor for their first dance as a married couple” He said. Billie Joe offered me his hand and I took it and he lead me onto the dance floor as the opening bars of Everything I Do, I Do It For You by Bryan Adams started playing. As we wrapped our arms around each other I heard him clear his throat before he leaned his head close to my ear and started singing to me, so I sang back. He pressed his lips against mine and everyone started clapping. Eventually Allen and Julia joined us, dancing in a circle soon after Jenn and Mike appeared and than Tré and Taz.

“Jaime, honey, can I have a dance?” Pop asked me softly

“Of course” I said. Justin and I helped him stand up and Billie Danced with my nan while Pop and I very slowly and very carefully danced. I started crying again and he hugged me. After a while he got back in his chair and Tré asked Billie if he could dance with me, since he was the one who gave me away. Billie Joe grinned, said yes and went to dance with his mum. While Tré and I were dancing the song ended and Turn Me On by Kevin Lyttle started playing. Tré instantly dropped to the floor and did a head spin. I laughed and clapped for him. When he stood up his Mohawk was a little lopsided.

“Jaime” Said Joey taking hold of my hand

“Yeah?” I answered, still laughing

“Can I dance with you?” He asked

“No, I wanna dance” Said Jakob

“I’ll dance with both of you” I said taking their hands. They reluctantly held each others hand and we danced in a circle, kicking our legs into the middle.

“How’s about we cut the cake?” David said and the music softened and everyone crowded around billie Joe and I as we stood at the table with the 3 tiered chocolate cake that my Nan made for us. We held the knife between us and smiled for the various camera’s that were flashing in our faces as we sliced the cake gently. When everyone had eaten a piece David took the microphone again and went out onto the dance floor.

“Ladies if you would like to make your way onto the dance floor, I’m sure Jaime wouldn’t mind throwing her bouquet” He said. I saw Adrienne standing by herself, watching and before I stepped on to the chair, I went over, grabbed her hand and pulled her to the front. She laughed and tried to go back to where she was standing

“Stay, it’ll be funny” I said. She nodded. Billie Joe helped me up on to the chair and held me up while I turned around.

“1, 2, 3” David said and I tossed the flowers over my head. I turned around in time to see Jenn holding up the bouquet and everyone cheering for her. I laughed and went to give her a hug.

“Now gentleman, if you could make your way out here, we all know what’s gonna happen now” David said. All the males crowded on the dance floor and chanted ‘take it off’ over and over. I put my leg up on the chair and everyone wolf whistled. Billie Joe hiked my dress up to my thighs and grinned at me. The DJ oput Feeling Good on to play and everyone laughed. He bent down and grabbed the garter in his teeth, slowly pulling it down my leg. I lifted my leg up and he pulled it off and turned to face his friends and my friends with his hands in the air before he turned his head and thrust it back, letting the garter go. David caught it and I cheered the loudest. We kept drinking and dancing for hours until the hotel people asked us to start winding it up. We said goodbye to everyone, waited until the last people had gone and than made our way to our hotel room.

“Wait, can I do this properly?” Billie Joe asked as we were just about to go in the door. I looked at him confused. He grinned and hoisted me into his arms. I started laughing and tucked my legs in a little as he carried me over the threshold of the door way.

“I thought you were meant to do that at a home” I teased as he dropped me on the bed

“Well we’re not gonna be home for a while” He said as he pulled his shirt off. I grinned and got up on my knees, undoing his belt and the button fly on his jeans, pulling them down. Before I could give him head he was tugging on the zipper on my dress. When we were naked he pushed me down and kissed me gently as he slipped inside. We moaned together as he started moving in and out and I wrapped my arms and legs around him. Our eyes met and I saw so much love and passion in his that I struggled to hold tears back.

“Let it out baby” He whispered, getting tears in his own eyes. As we made love for the first time as a married couple both of us cried. When both of us had orgasmed we lay facing each other. I reached up and touched his cheek, smiling.

“I love you” I said

“I love you too” He answered, smiling back.

“Jaime” He said after a while of just staring at each other and grinning

“Yeah?” I answered

“Do you wanna have a baby?” He asked

“Not right at this moment” I said, diverting my eyes

“Ok” He said and kissed my forehead

“What I do wanna do is fuck your brains out” I said rolling on top of him. He reacted instantly, his cock pressing against my butt. I raised myself up on my knees and carefully guided him inside me. I started riding him hard and fast and both of us were moaning. It didn’t take either of us long to reach that high and a few minutes later we were both calling out and holding on to each other. Needless to say we didn’t sleep much. The next day when we did eventually get up we went found trays of food with a note attached.

“Congratulations on your marriage. This is for your breakfast, compliments of The Power House Staff” Billie Joe read out. I took the covers off the trays and saw the most gorgeous looking food ever. Pancakes, bacon and eggs, French toast, eggs Benedict, bagels, cereals, a yummy looking fruit platter, yoghurt and of course coffee, tea and juices.

“Oh fuck yeah” I grinned. We grabbed some of the food and went back to bed.